
i have always have disordered thoughts but never acted on them until this year… is been awful but i have lost weight so is working <3 but i also hate myself after binging then purging. it leaves me exhausted. tired. and so scared bc ik the effects are gonna kick my ass later on…
i never been as obsessed with food as i am now. it makes no sense. i think about food 24/7. it has become my life. i love food. but i love looking and feeling skinny more.
waking up in the morning, using the restroom, then weighting myself has become a routine. seeing the numbers go down is one of the best feelings, i tweet about it all over twitter. but then that happiness leads to rewarding myself with food. which leads to me eating a lot. binging … purging… fasting… is a cycle…
ngl he did get more hot, his confidence is very attractive