So he kinda wants him to own up to the shit he did right? Like I think Doyun is ok with them being together but he wants Sungho to own up to his shit and not just run away but actually work through it and not just forget about it. Like previous chapters we saw Doyun kinda be numb to everything but this chapter shows that he’s fully aware of what’s been happening. I don’t think it’s simple enough to just be Stockholm syndrome, I feel like Doyun genuinely likes Sungho and I feel like he somewhat saw past the crazy “I’m gonna rape you everyday” look/vibe that Sungho was doing and saw that he actually cares. Does anyone else get this from reading this chapter? Idk, I actually want a happy ending for Sungho. We’ll see.
To me it seems like Dohyun is upset at Seungho for selfishly asking them to start over without considering the weight of what he has already done. Seungho wants to go back because whatever fog compelled him to torture Dohyun has been lifted now that he is seeing the Dohyun he loved from before. He’s reminiscing and trying to get back what he’s lost. But that would only be a benefit for him.
The state that Dohyun is in right now, “ pretending that nothing has happened” is the only thing keeping him alive. He’s accepted that Seungho is effectively imbalanced and that beyond this, he doesn’t have a life worth living. Out of all the pain and abandonment he’s endured in life, the greatest is the only person he loved (and was so hurt by that he blocked their memories out to protect himself) doubles back in his life just to destroy him in every way humanely possible. Does Seungho understand the full weight of what he has done to Dohyun? Both in high school and now? It seems he thinks he was the only one devastated from their breakup. We’ve yet to figure out what happened to Seungho that night in the warehouse so it could explain his downward spiral.
They’ve been ruined for life, and no matter if they go back or keep pretending they're living in a delicate hell of their own creation. Seungho desperately wants to genuinely love Dohyun and Dohyun seems to have closed the door on all possibility of that after Seungho ended their relationship back in high school. Now after torture, imprisonment, rape, Dohyun is telling Seungho that he will never again be able to reach the depths of who he truly is and to ask Dohyun to open back up and bare all the scars borne from their relationship alone and “ start over” would be like torturing him all over again.
For some reason, i felt that sungho has been keeping dohyun in the dark about what really went down that night in that warehouse that made him losing his shit the next morning and spilling out all the craps of him hating sex to dohyun (we all know that in sungho's journals he actually loves having sex wth dohyun)
Sungho could have pretended nothing had happened but he just couldnt handle the lies from this anymore. Of course, if he continued to turn a blind eye to dohyun's mental condition when it's clearly questionable, it would save him from trouble of getting forgiveness from dohyun. But he just couldnt, he couldnt lie to himself anymore that he was the one who broke him. He wants to take responsibility for what he has done to dohyun..
Did they do another age jump? Now the twins are 17 and she does look...more mature? Is it just my eyes? So that would mean she’s what, 20? If it was a typo then yeah the twins can pass for 15 even with that height. And is it true what I’m reading about Perdel? If it’s true then I’m not surprised, he always seemed a bit scetchy. And I don’t care if it’s slow, as longest they keep showing Asisi ლ(´ڡ`ლ)
That last panel was me when I first discovered yaoi but without the disgusted face lmao
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Thank you so much for sharing this. You will be worshipped
LMAO YES
I only do what’s good for our people! （/TДT)/
Does anyone know how he got to the directors house? Like did the ex secretly call him or did the director follow him?
Thats what im wondering about
They're at a hotel XD
That’s a fancy ass hotel
I've seen the raws and I just know the director intercepted him and they're at a hotel
Why. Why why why why why why why why WHY do people feel the fucking need to attack someone who is legit risking themselves by providing these chapter illegally. You’re getting these chapters FREE. These people are spending their own money and are nice enough to share what they have paid for! You have the fucking audacity to complain for free things? You must be the lowest of low to do that. As much as we want to support the original artist, some of us can’t afford to spend a single dollar on Tapas or Lezhin. You’re not gonna die for a late chapter. It won’t kill you to be patient for an upload. Yeah it sucks that this will be dropped, but you know what? I feel much better knowing that Xei won’t have to deal with the fucking bullying of these people who can’t fucking appreciate what is given to them. Fuck you assholes who complain about late updates, I have no fucking care about cursing the shit out of you.
Thank you Xei for everything you’ve done and the chapters you’ve uploaded. Although you don’t owe us an explanation or an apology for stopping your FREE uploads, thank you for taking the time for giving us one.
ikr i'm so fucking upset
Lmao my schedule was like that freshmen year of college but a little bit worse (I was a hopeful fishy)...I learned my lesson (〜￣△￣)〜