Im so fucking blind I reread this again and at chapter one he was having sex with someone but was actually fantasizing of the male lead which was a CHILD in his image ♀
Hajin did have feelings for her but after he killed nayeon's brother he was very much filled with guilt and haven't met nayeon for years. Now hajin just thinks of her as 'Someone special' because he has yi byul in his heart alr. ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄
im... im trying my best not to drop this