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i might get torched for this but imma be real. this story is so goddamn dramatic lmfao. and i like drama, i like dramatic manhwas, but here it's just so annoying to read. it takes itself so so seriously for a manwha that starts on such a goofy and unrealistic premise, and that's usually ok for me but here i just can't take it. im fr cackling at the foreshadowing of this man's trauma because its just so unserious LOL and i dont even know why, i just can't be invested.

especially because all the art is SO detailed, so filled with blurs and dark shadows and harsh contrasts in color, that i just get a headache trying to make out what's actually happening. it feels like the artist wanted EVERY PANEL to be sexy---show off their abs with every detail under the sun yes, show a little skin even though bro is wearing an oversized hoodie (chapt 34) yes, big arms and broad shoulders and muscles piercing out of their skin GALORE yes!---and it's so exhausting man. like why cant we just see this man sing to himself while recalling his trauma? why does he also need to look like the Sexiest Man Alive TM with every ab and muscle outlined and shaded perfectly? is this just me?? am i the only one who is exhausted by this???

idk. in my opinion it feels like these characters are just that, characters, rather than people, because they're constantly being sexualized. and also bc they've barely been developed in the past 34 chapters, but that's another story. also before someone says 'don't like, don't read!' i am here for the dirty talk and that's virtually it

ok this actually seems p interesting. although wdym "i wont ask you to loosen me up"?? uh, YEAH you will if you dont wanna say goodbye to your ass bro. lube is not enough

WAIT WHY IS THIS SO INTERESTING..... im invested now holy shit! wasnt expecting that from the early blurry ass chapters lol

im so late to the party here, but OH MY GOD chapter 32 made me feel things. rant incoming

idr who said this a while ago in the comments (whoever you are ily and you’re so smart) but when hayden is in his rut without brett (chapt 19), the way he attempts to calm himself down is by recalling the memory of brett going down on him, which is where brett COMPLETELY dominates the situation, even fucking leaving mid way through because he got a call. and when hayden blacks out, and has that vision of being on stage, he also envisions brett being in the audience and telling him, “well, do something.” in both instances hayden fantasizes about the dominant, controlling part of brett and the more submissive role that /he/ gets to play in turn.

we know that hayden despises his violent, dominating tendencies and always feels guilty about losing control of himself during sex, even when brett says it’s okay. i believe he finds more comfort in either himself submitting, or brett dominating (or them having an equal power dynamic). so ITS SO FUCKING INTERESTING that, in chapter 32, brett saying that he accepts the safe word and respects hayden’s choice to have it, and giving him that genuine, sweet smile, is what makes hayden bond to brett. the fact that brett acknowledges and accepts that he now has power—strong, demonstrable power—over hayden literally CHANGES HAYDEN’S BRAIN CHEMISTRY. it only makes me even more convinced that (imo) hayden finds comfort in submitting, in someone, and that someone crucially being brett, having power over him—but not toxic power, not power that will hurt him or necessarily manipulate him; power that will protect the one he cares for from his most violent tendencies. power that means he no longer has to agonize for days afterward about how much he must have hurt brett and if brett is truly okay. power that means he has a way out of his loss of control. power that means peace.

I LOVE THIS MANWHA SO FUCKING MUCH.