so what about the actual husband? I assumed allen was in love with him since in the novel chris read he seemed to be choosing the first husband over him any time. but after reading it again it wasn't mentioned anywhere that allen loves him... I guess it's a political marriage? where the value of the first husband is much higher than chris that's why he's a priority.
oh and chris and his child in the original story must have been killed so they won't have the right for the throne or any of the heritage!
appreciate how the author is going about his moving on from sven. I can't lie though, his crush origin is tough to beat... sven really hit him with the most genuine and life changing words.
love how ignat's kindness is silent... it's so calming, but you know it's there. it's quite sad we realize it's from loneliness. I hope they can be happy










oh fuck me why did it end here. the fact that this type of shit happens irl is what makes this whole thing feel so heavy. that old classmate literally should've shut tf up I wanna tear his vocal chords off. and the way people are making up stories to save yuu. this is so frustrating
I honestly really can't blame haruki for the things he's said. he was already an anxious guy and then the thing that made him very happy was taken away from him, he's feeling all the pressure and is spiraling. ugh I feel so bad for him :((((