
Well I just want to confirm something. As I understood it, the uke was denying the sex with all his might but it was just to prevent himself from wanting more from the seme. Though I know that the seme shouldn't have pushed for it, I don't think that the rape is what the uke is mulling over. I assume he was contemplating of his wish to have a first and last sex and be reborn as someone who is not gay but because of the seme he got confused and scared of not being satisfied after one taste. He was confused of his own desires, then all of a sudden he was attacked by Emoto, and then disowned by his dad. Anyone wouldn't want to deal with anything after that, explaining why he brushed off the seme.
This would've been better if it were not compressed in such short chapters but I understand that mangakas struggle with publication matters and stuff. So sad this happens to stories with great potential to be better. I hope you all don't blame the author, I can sense she/he didn't mean ill in this compared to other manga with rape in it (even others justifying it).

Stories like this make me so insecure for the mc hahahaha the thing about past lovers is that it makes you think that what if that past lover was still alive, you'd think you have no chance.
I guess this is just me and mh insecurity talking. Though it's good to see how the author will make it work. I hope it transitions well (=・ω・=)
Hopefully I will be able to remember this as their best work. I love Yamamoto Kotetsuko and the stories they make are very interesting but whenever I binge their stuff it just gets too repetitive and doesn't really leave a significant impression on me.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed them but some part of me says there could've been something more to it.
Though I really love their recent works so far. Namely Ashita wa Docchi da, it still had the cute uke but I love how it involves issues on homosexuality.
This new one has promise so I hope ot doesn't disappoint. But yeah, I don't really have the right to complain since I'm reading this for free.