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I didn't cry so I wasn't as emotionally invested in this as much as I wanted to be??? But I'm normally apathetic so it's like eh. It has become one of my favorite manhwas ever though. It's just so hauntingly beautiful, the kind that creeps up on you a while after you've read it. Not to mention: the art, the colours, the themes, the historical background?? Everything is just perfect. A league on its own. This is a bl you won't confuse with others. It's just. Ugh.

I want to read this all over again so as to understand the story better but also, I want to have my memory wiped out so I could read it for the first time again.

Also the puppy is so cute

It was even cute at times how they both kept being in denial. There was tension and it was hot but then...the drugs. Felt like the author made the both of them drug the other so it wouldn't be as morally questionable but two wrongs don't make one right.

It was also really cute how ml gave mc his whole ass pass book but the story just didn't go anywhere. There was no growth in hehe characters, issues that needed addressing weren't addressed.

I would love to just think the story got cut off due to not extending the contract (not having extras is a clue) and while that sucks for the author, it's way better than admitting they wrote a story that never reached its potential bc their skills were lacking.

This was a regrettable read. It was funny in the beginning. I wanted to like it but ah.

They're so cute pls

No because if you're asking me with that face, I would jump you in the car

Like it's often a pleasant surprise when a bl is decensored after all the lightsabers but I badly need the lightsaber for this one. Dicks are already ugly in real life, why it gotta be a jumpscare every time I read an update??

That reads weird, I mean I was just reading a verse bl anthropology before this and this cp really has the potential to be verse.

With Nakwon I feel like he wouldn't really care about positions, like it's stopped being about exhibiting authority for him at this point. With how much he's said I love you here I feel like sex would be purely an expression of his feelings, like he wouldn't care who's entering whom and it would just be about being close to Mokhwa fr. Like he would wear Mokhwa as his skin if he could

And for Mokhwa I think it would serve him well to take a break from just receiving all the time, and I don't mean just sexually. He's always had things just happen to him, and he's never really been the one to initiate whether it's receiving attention from the ladies, receiving affection or the fact that said attention is being removed/not supplied anymore (gwangwoo). Like, my man, you're living this life too

Like why did this not surprise me, I didn't even blink

I didn't think to call this art style watercolor until the panels where the ghost bride recalled her name (the part where the art transitions into the negative space (the canvas texture, which I also just noticed a few weeks ago) in paint splotches. Like that part looks to me like watercolor paint effects but I can't really say the same for the rest because it looks crisp and the colors aren't transparent. Is it safe to call this semi-watercolor?

And no that doesn't mean I like Nakwon. I started reading this today and always thought it interesting that most of the story is told in Nakwon's perspective. It looks to me the author intended it, we weren't supposed to like Nakwon at all. His thoughts on his rape, him as a person, they were all there for us to see. We know he intended to rape Mokhwa so we can't call it a mistake. Rather, a grave sin, that he acknowledges he did, which is Something. Too often in these BLs, the rape is only brushed upon if even at all, so for Nakwon to admit it, show to us readers that just because his feelings for Mokhwa have become love doesn't mean he can be forgiven for what he has done. And despite his admittance, he still fails, like that unconsented kiss in the summer vacation house (thank goodness for the fireworks), so we're always reminded that he is an imperfect person.
And is that not the most human a drawn fictional character can be, in trying to change and failing? Honestly, I don't know if he can ever be forgiven, that's up to Mokhwa ig, but as a fictional character, his growth is something I would love to watch upon.

Also, I just really love the language in which the story delivers itself. It's almost like reading a novel. I usually view gangster-themed works as tacky but there's something sophisticated in the language used, even with Mokhwa where it's more...raw.

Also, Nakwon really could have given Mokhwa more time to make sense out of what's happening, but Mokhwa has acknowledged that this is a situation he can get out of, he has free will, so that's Something.

And I don't know why I jumped into this thinking it was already completed. Rip me.