
This manhwa triggers me, my trauma, my anxiety, my self harm and dissociation so fucking much and that's why I've avoided reading it.... but I still read it.
It's 5:30am and I'm alone and triggered. Why do I do this to myself.
Not going to lie tho. The drawings and the plot are really so well done. I wish I didn't have any mental issues to just enjoy this like a normal person.
skskdjsk I know I sound so pity I just needed to vent and stop dissociating by writing about my situation

"I just started to feel like wanting to vomit whenever I was alone in the room"
Kei has obviously gone through a lot more trauma than me but I find I cope with my mental health in a similar way. I am incredibly expressionless on the outside and almost never show any kind of emotions. In addition, I've recovered from bullimia. I liked the way it's portrayed in the manga, I find it was quite similar for me. I didn't even want to lose weight, I just needed to have control about something in my life and puking was the only way out I found. It really is tough.
I think that for Kei might be also about "control" since in addition of constant stress and anxiety about following the settings he's also going through a lot of changes mentally. He obviously feels Yutaka is important and dear to him and his entire mental state is evolving due the fact he is learning to love. And I find that beautiful but it's obviously incredibly hard for Kei since he is "awakening" his pasts memories, which mostly are traumas.
I already loved this manga A LOT. The art, the story, the characters... but now I find myself incredibly attached to this manga. Thank you so much for the translation!
I just read the first chapterrrr
Can someone tell me if this is BL?
it's shounen ai, ofc it's bl lol (didn't mean to come off rude)
Oopsie I didn't read the tags properly lmao. I'm at chapter 45 so I already figured it out haha. Thanks anywaysss!!
you're welcome(๑•ㅂ•)و✧ enjoy it