
I mean I get why that needed to happen, it’s an apocalyptic world they live in , every decision they make is crucial and has the power to change their future and especially when they are a town and supposed to be careful and united so the supplies hold. And whatever reason it was he shouldn’t have stolen it when he knew they were already low on medicine, maybe he could’ve asked beforehand. But damn I didn’t want him to die, what’s gonna happen to his kid now?

Ahhhh I remember reading this like a year ago or something but forgot about it, it popped up on the home page yesterday and decided to read it again. This was so good, and i didn’t understand the stock, shareholding bs at first but I got the gist of it as the story went on, and wow it’s really a story driven bl with a slide of romance but the story wouldn’t have progressed without the romance as soheon needed seo ho/ho seo (??) and vice versa. The seme is so hot and cute omfg I loved how he always apologized even though most of it was the uke’s fault. And when he said ‘that’s why I’m trying to start one with you’ (talking about relationship) I got butterflies, that was so romantic

This chapter really put things into perspective for me, what myeongil said to heonjae’s confession that is, and also jingi’s response of ‘the cells full’. Myeongil is right about heonjae confusing his feelings and also how tf would he know how liking someone would feel if he’s mentally unstable and been in a cell most of his life?
Anyways, heonjae has abandonment and attachment issues, aside from his brother no one showed him kindness or bothered having a conversation with him, and here comes myeongil who hung out with him and talked to him, not to mention being someone heonjae could sexually harass and rape at any given time so in a way myeongil gave heonjae best of both worlds and that’s why he thinks he ‘likes’ him. The thing with his heart hurting when he thinks about not seeing myeongil literally is that he just doesn’t wanna be left alone, you would think he should feel like that about his brother who he’s spent most of his life with and would dependent on him, actually care about him but no, jingi doesn’t give him what myeongil gives (or is forced to give) him.
On to jingi; my mans actually cares about both his brother and mc (im sick of writing the names so they will be referred to as h and mc) , there was a shift in his attitude from when he and mc started being distant, he could’ve been like he was at the beginning and ignored mc’s refusals but he stopped bothering him, and it could also be a way for him to help H with his ‘crush’ on mc so H could spend more time with mc and have him to himself. AND WHAT DOES HE GET BACK? HE GETS FUCKING JUMPED AND STABBED

Heonjae also feels justified in betraying Jingi because he feels like Jingi abandoned him in his darkest time. In ch 63 Heonjae says "when I got hurt I wished someone was by my side", so to him being injured during track and disappointing his coach was the darkest time of his life and it would have meant a lot to him to have Jingi, his big brother by his side. This is another reason why Heonjae is obsessed with mc because he encouraged Heonjae to continue trying to practice something that he gave up on. Jingi not being by his side during this darkest moment also blindsides Heonjae from realizing that Jingi was trying to protect him. Also Jingi doesn't tel Heonjae anything so how would he know that Jingi was protecting him. But I also don't know if Heonjae would care about what Jingi went through.
Ughhhh I want more