As I was reading i was listening to harry stiles ‘sign of the times’ and coincidentally when he was about to go to the computer the part where harry sings ‘we got to get away’ came on and i just kept repeating ‘yes yes get away please get away’ as he went closer and closer to the computer
I’m really confused, did utsumi start ‘loving’ him AFTER he got raped? And that’s why he felt betrayed cuz Akamine only had eyes for saeki ?? But, why and how the hell did he get feelings after getting RAPED?? Is it some kinda trauma and he’s confusing the emotions for love?? I’m just really confused on the whole process, the story did not go how I was thinking and it really glossed over the whole rape part, which is the whole plot, it shouldve been more fleshed out
Noo utsumi fell for akemi the day akemi comforted utsumi n drank utsumi’s drink for him at the dinner party (for context: the bosses in japan make the new employees drink a lot and it’s not polite to turn them down so utsumi felt pressured but akemi drank the drink for him) (this all happened prior to the rape).
Utsumi started hating akemi AFTER the rape and also bcuz when he saw akemi at the company the next day after it happened, akemi seemed to have forgotten all abt it n he was all happy n laughing with seaki and this felt like a stab to utsumi’s wounds.
In the process of trying to get his revenge on akemi he also started seeing akemi for who he rly is and he fell for him even more so essentially he hated+loved him at the same time.
In chap 11, utsumi thinks something along the lines of ‘the pain of betrayal, of not being chosen’ along with flashbacks of 6 years ago. and in order to forget he stole everything away from akamine, he then thinks about whether he was wrong in falling in love with akamine and wanting him to look his way, which basically implies that he fell for him prior and after the rape, cuz we see scenes of him looking at akamine and saeki talking and that would be where he feels the pain of not being chosen cuz akamine was obviously head over heels for saeki. If you get what i mean, at least that’s how i interpreted it
well yea utsumi never stopped liking akamine even after being raped, which is why i said it was a hate-love feeling
I genuinely dgaf about how Jae kyung is doing, i hope he suffers more AHHAHAA
Honestly I don’t blame him for being how he is, albeit wrong it stills gives an explanation, guy’s been stepped down on since he was a kid, from his own family and even in school, every person around him never seemed to care enough to treat him like a normal human being even tho you can see from the start he’s a bit special needs kid. But they failed him and now he has to suffer with the consequences because no one was there to teach/parent him
Karam is literally so uninteresting and the mc didn’t spend as much time w him as he did others so why tf does he even like him, and why did we get flashbacks for junseo and red head but not karam? It’s like he was forgotten just to swoop in at the end cuz he suddenly started to like him, the author should’ve showed the progress, delved more into why he didn’t accept mc’s confession, instead of this rushed ass sht and making me root for junseo GIVING ME HOPE when they had the bed and room moments cuz mc never had those kinda moments where the colors of the setting changes, and even when he didn’t tell karam he liked him right away cuz he thought of junseo LIKE WHATTT WHAY KINDA BS IS THIS IM SO MAD I FINISHED IT STAYED UP TO 3AM FOR NOTHING ╥﹏╥
I literally feel sick to my stomach, my poor baby’s dead body is being used crying rn
Now I’m getting real scared for when juheon finds out sunbae is just using him, and dumbass sunbae prolly won’t even realize he’s already starting to like him until it’s too late and will be nonchalant about it when juheon confronts him and then poor juheon baby will be all sad ugghhhhhhhh I caaannnntttt ╥﹏╥
NOOO I WANT MORE WHATTT