Ok. So uhm I guess what he meant was that he never considered his previous penetrations as "sex" because he didn't really want it. Hence, as he said, "pseudo-sex".
Maybe he really meant it? that he never had sex, and the only time where there was a penetration was a gang rape. So when he told him that he never had real sex he hid the fact that he was raped (because of the mood and that he didn't feel like telling him directly after their reunion) and never again did he have real sex after the rape and waited for the right one?
That's how I understood it, don't know if I'm clear










Oh shit. Better lay off reading for a while and wait for more chapters 'cause i have a weak ass heart for cliffhangers and drama.