I finaly understand what maya feels.....
A wait is so painful and one sided. The people who ask for a short break without telling when they wanna get back is incredibly selfish. (but nemu is okay, I like him anyway) Its only good for them but for the person waiting they will constantly thinking of the person, and the guilt inside them will just grow bigger. It was just......painfully one sided.
(regardless that, proud of the author, still loves the plot and cant wait for more uwuwuw)
Meh,true, selfish isnt the right word to describe it much. I was just saying it based on one my experience, as someone who was left hanging, I just didnt feel good about it. It was just horrible and kept me thinking "Why cant you think about my feelings a bit more, why are you taking so long, whats so hard to think about, why that mattered more than me " and stuff.....so yeah, one sidedly. Just trynna relate to maya. But my point is just to explain how it feels like to be like Maya (waiting/left hanging).
What I feel about asking for a break is:
Do not hesistate to take a break, especially to sort out your feelings. Its okay to do it for yourself, it means you still care for yourself. Sorry to confuse you.










Is it courage or cowardness to atempt suicide twice? When I die, will I finally get your time, will you finally visit my grave? How much despair more must she endure? I cry, its sad. What's even more sad is when its caused by misunderstanding.... ML, I hope you suffer enough. Suffer even more than the pain Violet been through. Don't you dare repent till you do so.
Well, apparently he will. We'll see how i guess.
I would say at this point it's neither of these things. First attempt she was afraid and still wishing for a change in her life and second she literally just gave up in life