
part of my depressive ass crave someone like Jeff..who can handle me when i’m in my depressive or manic episode..but another part of it know i didn’t deserve someone like him because i know i will break him apart..

it’ll more troublesome if you have personality disorder..i’ve been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder comorbid bipolar with psychosis..the personality disorder make everything i feel is intense..i love too much,hate too much,think too much..everything is too much..it’ll turn to hell if it clash with my manic episode..ughh

I’ve always thought that something was wrong with the way I think, love, feel, and hate so I stay away from people. Im to scared if they get to close and I brake down from going in circles in my mind that I'll lose them because they don’t understand me. Reading manga is my safe place. It’s the one place where I don’t over think although I feel like I can’t breath when I read certain mangas.

all of characters in this manga have serious communication issueto the point that make me feel like i want to jump in it and slap all of them to make them realize what’s actually happening around them..

I think Japan is really something different when it comes to communication, I think it is similar in many Asian countries
I lived in South Korea and people were very secretive about everything
They didn't like confrontation or arguments and would just ignore what was happening around them
Even if something went wrong and someone was misunderstanding smth, they would rather choose to ghost you, ignore you than talk to you

It's "normal" as in it happens quite "often" in life. Doesn't mean it's the right way. I also ignore things instead of confronting it. The thing is though I do look at both sides which is rare. I tend to stand on the sidelines rather than get involved even though I might be directly involved. Again it doesn't mean it's right. I'm refering to this in terms of relationships...which also includes friendship as well.

Yes I am aware of how Asian culture specifically Korea,Japan and china are (since of course there are many other countries in Asia). I know those countries I mentioned above are more extreme where communication is concerned but humans in general regardless of religion or culture (yes that has a lot of effect..since Americans are more open) humans..ah when your caught up in your own emotions it's hard to see things clearly that's all I ment.
Cristoph and Ryan are everywhere..!!