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I’ve really been wanting to read a Bl story where the Mc is not mentally well and self harms also there both in high school or college but that’s not a need I also want the love interest to comfort and help the Mc to get better some examples of one’s I’ve read a liked were raising a bat for my werido and suicide boy please help me out thx!

Just a bunch of sad manga to read if you feel like crying.. 
-tragic / sad story 
-story about a person struggling with mental illnesses or self-harming etc. 
-story without a happy ending where the mc just lives a bad life until they die.
And so on..

I want a manhwa like this but longer not something I can read in 2 days also I want it to be updating regularly (thanks I know I’m picky)