
My traumas and issues my likes. I love this kind o shit . WHY??? Because I 'm broke, yep. No one treats me kind or loves me. MEH. So I'm projecting my own wounds. Hoping those people who treated me bad one day they'd tell they love me . MEEEEEH I KNOW THAT IS SHIT. IN REAL LIFE THAT WONT HAPPEN. Yep I have to fix my mental health BUT for a moment this kind of trope makes me feel good just a lilttle bit unyil I come back y
To my reality

Damn sending messages is a form of communication there, for I am talking to you. there's no way you can be butthurt over a comment, instead of giving me the time of the day start working on yourself. Because if u don't change urself when ur young then it will be harder when u grow up. That's a piece of an advice coming from an ex people pleaser. As people say, you don't have a right to criticize if you don't have an idea about fixing things

Ok, last chapter I agree with her.Finally!!! But , seriously sometimes she complicated things. JUST SPEAK YOUR MIND GURL AS THIS LAST CHAPTER! NOT EXPECT THE OTHER SIDE READS YOUR MIND , JUST SAY HEEEEY I LIKE YOU BE MY MAN AND STOP FOOLIN AROUND WITH ME. I WANT SOMETHING SERIOUS NOT JUST ONE STEAMMY NIGHT. YOU HAVE TO PROPOSED TO ME FIRST DUDE

I realized that my cousin who I considered my sister because I was an only child she doesn't feel same . She only hung up with me in my childhood because my parets gave her money and gifts Not in a bad way, my family was poor and my parets were blessed in life and they wanted to share our blessings. I was so clingy wirh her since I wanted siblings and of course she used me. In therapy found out she wasn't kind and gently, she stole many thing from me and told me a lot of hurtful things. I lost my parents, my health, I'm unployed, someone commit fraud and stole my house and I've no money. I tried something horrible to myself and she doesn't care at all. I tried to talk to her but she's always busy. She's always promised to visit me and the last minute cancel without notice me before ehile I'm waiting. I realized since I lost everything I unworthy to her because she can't used me or steal something from me. This breaks my heart
Don't like, hate it, no, stop, it hurts. Beg. It's rape. I gonna drop this. I feel bad since i was expecting smth different of romantizing rape and toxic manipulation called LOVE . Yes, its fictional, yes . BUT, last week one of my neighbors. A 17 yo girl was murder after get raped by a stalker. It seems, a serial killer, he murdered 7 women. Many of them were his friends
And girlfriends. Another event that shocked me A 13 yol boy stabbed his girlfriend over 50 times
Yeah, I'm aware those aren't related at all. OBVIOUSLY. But to me some people behaviors are red flags . I reflected about those kind of troupes in stories, mangas, mangwas, romance , bl. Manipulation, brainwashing, gaslightning, insolation, rape, grooming, extortion, pedophile, stalking, kidnapping are so common and are called expresions of LOVE. I got enough. IDK why are so popular and healthy stories of love are low ranked. Of course, the art is AMAZING but this is it for me. It's no my cup of tea all kind of agression, physical, emotional and mentally.