Is anyone else impressed with the fact that the yakuza didn't rape the doc? Even after the doc offered to sleep with him he turned him down saying that "his dick would be happy in any hole but his heart would be crying". It sounds so weird to say but I thought it was so sweet that it made me tear up a little. A lot of yaoi's have rape in it especially when it involves the yakuza but this one didn't. I loved this story.
OMG YES! I was so relieved when he fought urges to just hit him or force him. The way he really loves the doc made my heart flutter ^-^ as cheesy as that sounds! I love yakuza stories, but I get sooo tired of the brute force :/ Nonami was a gentler approach! <3
I also enjoyed Honto Yajuu bc it wasnt as rapey, haha. Though the uke was the Yakuza :P
Am I the only one who wants Nao to end up with Nishina? I don't think it will happen but I'd love for it too. Taichi isn't treating Nao right, it's not fair that Nao is hurting so much. How many times will Taichi need a reality check to appreciate Nao like he should? I'm not usually one to hope the main characters split up and one end up with a side character but Nishina has such a sad story that I think Nao and NIshina would make a really cute couple. It would be so sweet after how both were treated.
Remember Taichi had it bad too, of course problems will surge specially since both aren't out of the closet, but taichi definitely loves Nao with all his kokoro
I'm all in for Nishina (•∆•)/
i also want nao and nishina to be together i ship them so much!!
It's still as good as the first time I read it. This story is not for everyone but I would still recommend it. It is pretty dark and taboo. I think that it has a very sweet ending. It is even better after you've read it once. Going back and reading it again you'll understand it even better. You'll also realize how hard it was for him not to touch his son. At first I was very confused when he stabbed his own hand but rereading it makes sense. This is an all time favorite and makes me cry every time I read it. I wish I could find another story similar to this one.
If taichi and nao don't end up together. I'm kinda rooting for nao and nishina because that chapter with nishina was so heartbreaking and with nao kinda healing him from the bad experience I'd love for them to end up together. Taichi is too selfish for nao even though nao does so much. I could see the story going either way and I wouldn't be upset but if nao and nishina don't end up together then I hope he gets his own story.
My heart broke over and over for Mel. He has such tragic life but he was such a gentle guy. It's really amazing that both Kain and Mel saved each other. Kain saved Mel from his tragic past and Mel changed Kain's life completely. I'm so happy Kain's family was accepting of Mel. I wish that all the bad stuff never happened to him, it was so sad to read about. This was a really good story. It was so bittersweet. I would read this again without a doubt.
I love this story soo much. Oh the feels for it. When reading it my heart was definitely broken several times. I hated that the doctors wife and kid died and he was left all alone. I felt so sad for him as he struggled to live everyday. I think meeting the musician again was the best thing that happened to him. I'm glad the doctor didn't try to sleep with the musician's son. I was so broken hearted when the son was raped and he told the doctor he was sorry for not keeping his virtue. I was extremely sad when his father didn't want to visit him in the hospital until later in the story when you find out why his father seemed to "neglect" him. The father really loved his kid but he was messed up in the head all because of his father. His father mistreated him and also raped him so he stayed away from his own kid in fear on doing it to him. After hearing that his son was raped he couldn't take it and wanted to rape his son and never let him go. But he didn't he was able to stop from doing it but he tried to kill himself and when that didn't work he ran away. The father was a broken man who tried not to be like his father. When the son told the doctor that he was okay with it as long as his father loved him I found it so pitiful. The son wanted his father to love him so much he was willing to put up with anything. Eventually, the doctor figures out that he was in love with the musician when a guy that was similar to him was brought to the hospital and was announced dead. No one could find the musician so the doctor was so afraid he was dead that he went to search for him. Eventually he finds the musician and listens to his story. The musician cries and asks the doctor that he wouldn't hold him because he was such a dirty person. The doctor finally gave in and slept with the musician. But during sex the musician strangles the doctor and leaves him. I was so heartbroken because I thought that the doctor was dead. But when he woke up I was so happy and amazed that even though the musician thought he killed him he cleaned and dressed the doctor and even shaved his beard. I thought it was weird at first but I thought it was meant to mean that the musician really loved the doctor. I was extremely pleased that they ended up together.
I decided I did not like this story because of all the reincarnation. I don't under stand why he couldn't just stay as a demon in hell. It's strange that he only decided to love the uke when he realized he was the reincarnation of the little boy that his mom killed. Because of that it turned me away from the story. Why couldn't they have just been fated together? It just wasn't to my taste.
If he stayed human, Ono would age, die, and reincarnate without him. If he turns human, he realigns themselves together where they'll die, reincarnate, and continue to be fated to meet in subsequent lives (if they are indeed fated, hence trusting in the future). Hisa gradually falls for Ono before discovering that Ono is the past boy but consciously denies it because of his devotion/guilt. Generally speaking, this was a very Japanese-Buddhist storyline.
Hisa (Enma) didn't start loving Ono when he realized he was the reincarnation of Hayo, rather, Hisa loved Hayo and felt that loving Ono would be a betrayal of his love for Hayo. Once Hisa learns that they are the same "soul", he knows that it is okay to love Ono because he is Hayo. For those who believe in reincarnation - which I do - the soul is eternal and is fated to love, or be tied to, only one other soul for eternity. Some stories tell of each soul being split in two at the moment of creation, others talk of two souls being joined and then split later. Basically it is the story of our compulsion to find our "other half" or the "one who completes us". If it is something you have never experienced, it's hard to describe - like describing colors to a person who was born blind - but when a soul touches their "other half" the feelings are different than just "love". When it happens, you just "know". Yes, I am speaking from experience.
Well it could be because I don't believe in reincarnation . I'd probably appreciate this story more if I did. I still enjoyed the story though.
Well it could be because I don't believe in reincarnation . I'd probably appreciate this story more if I did. I still enjoyed the story though.
Oh, that sounds interesting.
How do you find that person? Is it fate or there could be a possibility of not finding them?
If you're speaking in terms of individual human life spans, it is possible that the soul will be kept apart from their other half - consider the great number of people who die never having found "true love" or happiness with another person. Take heart though, eternity is a very long time and our life spans are exceptionally short in comparison. So, although we may be parted, it is only for a short time. Fate and circumstance are what guide us to find our other half. There is no set way to seek your other half because you won't know what to look for until you find them. The soul doesn't have a look or a personality type that can be described. Our experiences shape our personalities and our bodily DNA shape our appearance. These things don't effect the soul. So, until you stumble upon your other half, you'll be oblivious to them. The kicker is, you may not like the person who currently houses your other half, but you'll be drawn to them regardless. This usually prevents the two halves connecting or they attempt connection, it ends poorly for the people, but they never "get over" the feelings for the other person.
Please understand, I have tried to give an explanation and description of something that is outside the realm of current human understanding. Much like a person who has experienced a religious Epiphany or paranormal phenomena, I am limited in analogies and descriptions that can be related to anyone who has never experienced the same situation. I can't prove what I have experienced and I can barely describe it accurately, but I know that I experienced it. To me, my experience was special and beautiful and I hope that everyone else can experience the same special beauty. Whether they attribute the special beauty to the same cause as I have is not as important as them experiencing it for themselves.
I found this to be very interesting and definitely not a typical yaoi. I was slightly disappointed that he did not end up with his friend but the lawyer. I mean if you even consider them together? I'm not totally sure I'd read this again because it's so long and complicated. I did enjoy it and I found the mc to be very hot. I really loved the art for this story. I feel bad for the girlfriend because he kept up with everyone else but her even though she was always willing to be there for him. Was she still there at the end when he parted ways with a girl to go see the lawyer? I could be remembering that wrong. But the lawyer is really twisted if you think about it. The friend was a much better pick, I hope he find a happy love. Either way it was enjoyable, just extremely long.
Damnnnnnnn. This is some real realistic shit. It's about a pedophile who messes with a young boy. It is not for the faint hearted. I think this story goes to prove that if something happens to you when your young it can totally fuck up your way of thinking. There's only so much you can mentally handle and comprehend as a kid. Even though it's so messed up I did like the story. Keep in mind everyone it is a story and NOT real.