
this was a trip. I hate the cruel reality of what Jeremy had to go through and I do rationalize what he did. It was horrible, he was broken mentally and physically so for him to lose his sanity and kill someone was understandable. I thought after getting rid of greg's bastard face, I'll enjoy reading more but it was always sth that made you hate the way they acted, I understand why Jeremy started selling his body and didn't care about sleeping around but it pains to see someone already broken to keep losing himself like that. Im happy that in the end he turned his life and somehow got better even though it took around 30 chaps or more. We saw how his and Ian's relatonship would rollercoast up and down all the time. It felt like they were sometimes take a step to the front and then ten steps back, it was hard to see them struggling with everything. But i guess it's becuz of the reality that was depicted in here. It's ugly, the real world is ugly and you have to appreciate every lovely moment you get. I felt that this whole manga was about pain and love but in some many different contexts...ugh...it's truly an overwhelming feeling to finish this
also Jeremy always reminded me of Elio from Call me by your name, lol. I had to go and rewatch that movie cuz i couldn't get it out of my head while i read :D