Another rant about cockroaches, those nugators get on my fucking nerves. These draffish little insects piss me off with their very existence. Why do their legs look like that? Why the fuck do their antennas twitch like that? Why the fuck are they so fast? Why the fuck can they never die?
They are useless, and even if they somehow have a use other than scaring the shit out of people, they can be easily replaced with a cooler bug. The flying ones are terrifying, and you can’t even swat them out of the air unless it lands on a wall or surface.
It has the ugliness that only a mother can love and the annoyance of a common house fly combined into a abomination that even Victor Frankenstein wouldn’t like or want to touch.
Topic: My childhood stuffie.
Is this a safe place to say that I feel like having plushies as a child literally carries childhoods? I hope so because I miss mine.
His name was Mr.fluffy. He was a stuffed dog a got on Valentine's day, he was a soft light blue color and holding a pink heart, with round beaded eyes that were so cute. I'll probably never forget him.
He was there in every single one of my memories as a child, even as he got uglier as the years went on. (His stuffing was spilling out and one of his eyes were long gone, not to mention all the ashes he had in his skin, burn marks and the fact we ripped his heart off). But he still meant something to me y'know?
Unfortunately my mom threw him out when I turned ten and gaslit me into thinking I just lost him (which isn't possible I literally kept him in my bed all day everyday), because I was too old to have one. But I miss him so much everyday, I hate that I can't remember his smell or how he looked clearly.
I got a build a bear to try and replace him, but of course I didn't care about it like I did with fluffy. Now everyone is upset that like 100 and something dollars were spent on a beat I don't give a shit about, but I just want Mr.fluffy back.
Yap session: concluded.
(P.S: I will be back on my usual bullshit topics)
Chat please, read this. I don't care if you only read BL or GL, shit or just action. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JUST READ THIS.
Period (Yaoi)
(Lmao couldn't get the link so just type that in and it'll show up).
Pls just read it, then read it one more time to really let it sink in.
I really don't even know what to say after reading this because from the first panel alone, and if you're really only focusing on the characters expressions towards one another, this seems like your average best friends playing video games.
But the more you take in the details, the more you realize that was all just a front, a poorly built one to hide what really happened. For example, the fact the blonde one is covered in bandages with (seemingly fresh) wounds and bruises. The dirty environment and filled up Calendar, showing they probably haven't been outside since the murder. The bags in the tub which I'm assuming is the body.
Yet the most heartbreaking thing is probably how they decided in their last moments together, wither they knew it or not, that they'd spend it happy together. Even though there's nothing remotely to be happy about. Even though they probably aren't deserving of any happy moments.
Malcolm is the homie we all wish we had. Mane, y'all better be glad he not real. If he was I'd be on his ass like white on rice, licking that white boy up and down. He's some fine shyt to me.
Anyways, Luke is also looking extra lickable. Or maybe it's the black jacket. Or maybe because it looks like he wears Calvin Klein undies.
Kdj's looking breed able as always. Also, I'm not surprised at all that his type is Yjh, like bro we get it. That's your husband and everything you do or say leads back to him at some point.
That being said why is Persephone low-key the mother Kdj, never had?
That being said I'm happy to finally see my favorite pair of raging clit suckers!!!
Y'all talking about this shit is a cute romance, done fooled the hell out of me. This man here is freaked out to the MAXIMUM possible level. His facial expressions were sending me to hell and back laughing.
But overall this was a good read (?) it's just...I don't know he's so fucking weird it's hilarious. Seriously tho, fucking on the playground? They should've done a couple of tricks on the monkey bars while they were at it.
Shit, and here I thought the dad was trying to kill teach. I feel terrible for even defending Guwon.
The real question is, how the hell did we go from something sweet like dangerous convience store, to this??? This low-key still heat tho
His face card ate down so bad he had to calm down and collect himself. Realized he couldn't hurt a baddie
One day, when I'm old and gray my children or grandchildren are going to ask how I spent my youth. How am I to tell them I spent my time reading shit like this?
This is basically if autism met The little mermaid but instead of a little mermaid we get a fucking small fish, that turns out to not be so small in his human form? It was heat tho
Topic: Labels.
I realized I haven't been on my bullshit lately and then a thought crept into my mind like that fucking centipede that crawled between my ass in the third grade.
Why does everything have to have a damn label? Why do we have to be this or that? Why do I have to be a boy or girl, or non binary? Can't I just be me? Why does it matter if I kiss boys or girls? Why do I have to wear pants or a skirt? Why does it matter if I know the name of the exact style I dress?
What does anything matter?
Recently someone said It's weird to not have a label on yourself, to not "know" your true identity. But honestly, I don't wake up and look in the mirror just to see a lesbian or a gay person, a boy a girl. None of that. I wake up and I see myself.
Can't I just be me? Rina?
At this point everything I say is one big rehearsal. Oh what's my gender? A girl! What's your sexuality? Oh pan! What's your style? Haha just basic stuff!
Like goddamn. Can't I just wake up and be gorgeous and just myself?
This life shit is getting out of hand.
Yap session: Concluded!!
This side story with schuman or whatever the fuck is name is better be pure heat. I'm talking about hot ass hell type heat because I don been threw some shit reading this fuck ass book.
I've never in my life thought I'd see someone get baby trapped in a BL Manhwa.
My personal theory is like Guwon definitely did try to kill the dad, teach too even. but it was while the dad was trying to kill teach, why? Probably because he had an injury or something and was holding him back? So yeah, Guwon just killed the dad and took teach instead.
But then again, maybe he just killed him because he was useless like he did everybody else. After all, if he can lie to the kids he can lie to Teach
Topic: My understanding of a porn addiction.
So I've been thinking about it but it's come to my attention that I truly can't comprehend or understand how people get addicted to porn. Specifically, video porn.
For me personally, I forget porn even exists but every so often I'll remember and go watch some. Not with the intentions to get off, but rather to see if it's gotten any better. Because porn is ASS. And not the good kind.
The moaning is so overwhelming and exaggerated, the angels suck ass. The fuck ass plots they have, the faces they make. It just makes for a terrible experience. And since I usually forget it even exists, when I do watch it I watch all types of it (just not no fucked up shit).
So now when I watch porn the only thing I really be interested in is the human body. I wonder what really makes us react like this and so on. So now porn is more of an educational thing for me.
But I guess reading porn isn't all that different from watching it? But that's a different topic.
Yap session: Concluded!!
Topic: Liking red flags/slag non-con in BL
Disclaimer: bitch it's my opinion and I don't care about yours if you don't agree, so don't go getting all pissy about this when I won't remember it in 2weeks.
Okay so, don't get me wrong. I've read BL's with red flags and even non con. So I'm not going to act like some saint, hell none of us can considering the fact we're reading on an illegal website! Even enjoyed some (NOT THE NON-CON ONES).
but the thing is, I don't go searching for that shit and I'm not feigning for it. Neither am I trying to defend it. Yes it's fiction and doesn't harm anyone, but fiction comes from reality and liking rape PERIOD, is weird. No if and or fucking buts.
That being said, the only thing that really pisses me off about people like that, is that y'all try to make it sound like a completely normal and okay thing.
I'm all about self love and accepting yourself. Hell, we're all a bit weird and fucked up and you just have to accept it. If you genuinely enjoy rape and all of that shit, hey that's on you babe. Just accept yourself, don't try to make excuses so you feel better about yourself. Like it's fine, no one really gives a shit anyways!
Just like.......don't talk to me at all cause I think you're icky.
Topic: Concluded!!
Topic: erm, being in a toxic relationship???
Y'all, I don't know if it's just me but this dating shit ain't gon ever work out for me apparently. Why the fuck is everyone mentally ill? Like damn, I know I'ma lil fucked up but these people be taking it to a whole nother level.
Like what you mean u finna cut your arm up like a piece of paper because I didn't text you back??? Hello?? Is that supposed to make me give a fuck?? SHOULD I give a fuck??
This shit really be blowing my mind, talking bout he gon put me in his suicide letter and then got the nerve to wonder why I don't wanna date you??? Was it ever that serious?
Anyways I'm single again and I'm just gonna shed married to the yaoi