One day, when I'm old and gray my children or grandchildren are going to ask how I spent my youth. How am I to tell them I spent my time reading shit like this?
This is basically if autism met The little mermaid but instead of a little mermaid we get a fucking small fish, that turns out to not be so small in his human form? It was heat tho
Topic: Labels.
I realized I haven't been on my bullshit lately and then a thought crept into my mind like that fucking centipede that crawled between my ass in the third grade.
Why does everything have to have a damn label? Why do we have to be this or that? Why do I have to be a boy or girl, or non binary? Can't I just be me? Why does it matter if I kiss boys or girls? Why do I have to wear pants or a skirt? Why does it matter if I know the name of the exact style I dress?
What does anything matter?
Recently someone said It's weird to not have a label on yourself, to not "know" your true identity. But honestly, I don't wake up and look in the mirror just to see a lesbian or a gay person, a boy a girl. None of that. I wake up and I see myself.
Can't I just be me? Rina?
At this point everything I say is one big rehearsal. Oh what's my gender? A girl! What's your sexuality? Oh pan! What's your style? Haha just basic stuff!
Like goddamn. Can't I just wake up and be gorgeous and just myself?
This life shit is getting out of hand.
Yap session: Concluded!!
My personal theory is like Guwon definitely did try to kill the dad, teach too even. but it was while the dad was trying to kill teach, why? Probably because he had an injury or something and was holding him back? So yeah, Guwon just killed the dad and took teach instead.
But then again, maybe he just killed him because he was useless like he did everybody else. After all, if he can lie to the kids he can lie to Teach
Topic: My understanding of a porn addiction.
So I've been thinking about it but it's come to my attention that I truly can't comprehend or understand how people get addicted to porn. Specifically, video porn.
For me personally, I forget porn even exists but every so often I'll remember and go watch some. Not with the intentions to get off, but rather to see if it's gotten any better. Because porn is ASS. And not the good kind.
The moaning is so overwhelming and exaggerated, the angels suck ass. The fuck ass plots they have, the faces they make. It just makes for a terrible experience. And since I usually forget it even exists, when I do watch it I watch all types of it (just not no fucked up shit).
So now when I watch porn the only thing I really be interested in is the human body. I wonder what really makes us react like this and so on. So now porn is more of an educational thing for me.
But I guess reading porn isn't all that different from watching it? But that's a different topic.
Yap session: Concluded!!
Topic: Liking red flags/slag non-con in BL
Disclaimer: bitch it's my opinion and I don't care about yours if you don't agree, so don't go getting all pissy about this when I won't remember it in 2weeks.
Okay so, don't get me wrong. I've read BL's with red flags and even non con. So I'm not going to act like some saint, hell none of us can considering the fact we're reading on an illegal website! Even enjoyed some (NOT THE NON-CON ONES).
but the thing is, I don't go searching for that shit and I'm not feigning for it. Neither am I trying to defend it. Yes it's fiction and doesn't harm anyone, but fiction comes from reality and liking rape PERIOD, is weird. No if and or fucking buts.
That being said, the only thing that really pisses me off about people like that, is that y'all try to make it sound like a completely normal and okay thing.
I'm all about self love and accepting yourself. Hell, we're all a bit weird and fucked up and you just have to accept it. If you genuinely enjoy rape and all of that shit, hey that's on you babe. Just accept yourself, don't try to make excuses so you feel better about yourself. Like it's fine, no one really gives a shit anyways!
Just like.......don't talk to me at all cause I think you're icky.
Topic: Concluded!!
Topic: erm, being in a toxic relationship???
Y'all, I don't know if it's just me but this dating shit ain't gon ever work out for me apparently. Why the fuck is everyone mentally ill? Like damn, I know I'ma lil fucked up but these people be taking it to a whole nother level.
Like what you mean u finna cut your arm up like a piece of paper because I didn't text you back??? Hello?? Is that supposed to make me give a fuck?? SHOULD I give a fuck??
This shit really be blowing my mind, talking bout he gon put me in his suicide letter and then got the nerve to wonder why I don't wanna date you??? Was it ever that serious?
Anyways I'm single again and I'm just gonna shed married to the yaoi
Absolutely nobody's freak was matched here. Like none, everything is so unequal in this relationship it's bizarre. He just got baby trap, the fucking emperor dude just threatened to kill himself and the BABY, and now they fucking.
Everytime this dude say some there's a threat in it. Like no fucking wonder he didn't want to marry you, you threaten his life every chance u get!!!!
Topic: Korean bullying/how it's portrayed in media.
If I see one more video talking about the average American CAN'T handle Korean bullying I'm going to crash, because that shit is a complete joke. I'm not taking no weak ass shit like that.
Like for example, when they poor milk on they head or trip them in the hallway. First of all, you don't see her opening the milk carton and holding it over your head? If you don't stand up and molly wop the bitch. Then a wish a motherfucker would trip me in the hallway and I'm having a bad day, I'd shove my foot up everybody asses!!!
And then the rooftop beatings, you fucking dummy. Y'know they don't like you and beat your ass everyday, so if they ask you to go to the rooftop 'or else's', while holding bats and pipes, why in the helly would you go?
And they they be acting like they can't do shit bc they parents have cash, okay and? I know this school has one camera/student sighting of you getting your shit beat, and even then they clearly be the only ones beat up???
All I'm saying if, me vs the average Korean bully, I'm absolutely beating ass. Hell, I ain't scared to slap no trust fund bitch when everyday in my school I'm risking getting shot or some bullshit
Topic: being racist to white ppl
I wholeheartedly believe you can't be racist to white people. Sure, you can be extremely rude or (it's a word for what I'm talking about but I forgot it). But not racist, hell and even if you tried to it wouldn't compare to ANY of the racism they've dished out themselves.
They nearly wiped a whole race off the planet, systemically being racist to everyone that isn't white, literal phrases and words having racist orgin, black fatigue, Literally slavery, micro aggression. And so much more. Honestly, I believe they're the reason for at least 65% of all issues in America and literally everywhere else.
Actually, white ppl without thinking that it's definitely a 95% chance that they're racist for the hell of it. Then they literally take everyone else's culture and do what the hell they want with it?
So as long as I'm alive I probably won't ever respect a white person completely and definitely not a white male. I can't stand bleach monkey's.
Yap session: Concluded!!!
Topic: Music party poopers.
So I've had my fair share of conversations about music. But recently it's come to my attention that some ppl just don't like fun music? Like what type of bullshit is that.
And by fun, I mean music without much of a meaning behind them. Or a song someone made just for the hell of it that just happened to blow up. Like I've seen people real deal hate that type of music. (Example: she was a fairy, pinkpantress, ect)
And I sorta of understand but not that much. Like don't get me wrong, I love a song with a deep meaning or just wanting longer songs in general. But then again, my playlist has mitski and Justin Bieber in the same mix....
But the point is what's the point of hating on it? Music is supposed to be fun, maybe I don't want to be sad all the fucking time listening to mitski or wanting to shake my ass all the time because of Megan or don't want to bang my head off because I found some new nuu metal song.
People fucking suck and want to ruin the fun in EVERY fucking thing. If you don't like fun music, choke on ur spit!
Yap session: Concluded!
Topic: Age gaps in fictional/real life.
Now, to start this off I think age gaps are weird all together. Fiction or not, but I do have different tolerance levels for them depending if they are in a book or actual real life.
For example, a 20 year old dating a 40 year old. Bitch that's weird. He's literally old enough to be your daddy. And then they have the nerve to blame it on daddy issues. And it's understandable to a point but not having a dad does NOT mean you need to fuck the first old man you see.
That being said, if it's fictional I have basically the same thoughts on it. More than five years apart is weird for me when it comes to a book. But real life, it's three and even then I feel like it's pushing it.
Now I do have situations I won't be counting, a 20 year old being with some dying 80 year old to get that bank. Could be hypocritical of me, but hey, if he's going to die someone deserves the bag.
P.s(a 16 year old dating a 18 year old is weird, and not just bc one is a legal adult.)
Yap session: Concluded.
Topic: Diets/wanting to be skinny
I've never understood the thought behind dieting, or really wanting to be skinny. I understand it's that standard society has pushed on us, especially women. That skinny is what we should be but the way y'all go about it is sickening.
These people literally starve themselves or literallycomplain about not being able to eat this or that. But the thing is, we're all going to die. It's going to happen and we can't stop it and we only get one fucking life, and you're going to spend it like this?
Telling yourself that you can't have pizza because it's too greasy and fat and you're trying to lose weight? Honestly it's fucking annoying. Knowing is going to know or care that you used to be skinny when we're rotting six feet under. Just eat what you want.
Now when it comes to overweight ppl, sure I'll support it but even then it gets to a point. Just because you're not eating burgers anymore doesn't mean you're going to loose weight, you have to actually workout too.
People treat food like it's this evil thing when it's only job is too give us energy and keep us alive!
Yap session: concluded
Topic: Complaining about minors (16-18) being freaky in books.
Alr, I've seen people huffing and puffing about minors being freaky in these books. But my question is, what the hell do they expect? Like don't get me wrong, I get were you're coming from with the whole "Minors shouldn't be doing things like this" but the thing is, they literally do?
Not in just fiction, literally in real life. They're teenagers. What the hell do you think a teenager is going to want to do with someone their dating? Just talk? Of course they're going to have sex. That's literally why teen pregnancy is a problem today.
Like you're really going to sit here and pretend you've never had a sexual thought while you were a minor, fucking never? I really feel like y'all to suck that shit up. Also considering the fact it's fictional, and nobody is making you read this.
Yap session: concluded.
Alr chat, I made it to chapter 17 only and I'm happy to say I will absolutely be dropping this!
First of all, the main character right, I don't know if it's just me but it seems like he's constantly throwing a goddam fit. Like we get it, you hate the world, but how in the entire FUCK do you also hate the only person that seems to give a fuck??? Even if it's only out of lust.
Like he's literally declining the offer to be free, all because he doesn't want to sleep with him. Hell, you're a damn slave and you've been telling him no. Imagine how much more you could get away with when you're FREEE.
And not only that, he's always acting like he's tough and shit. Like I understand it to a degree but it gets to a fucking point dog.
I'M Referring TO BEING INSIDE OF ITTT
(I'm going to assume the rat it that one kid dad or something and he's either been taking supplies or hiding the fact the kid been bit)
MANE EVERYBODY IN THIS COMMENT SECTION AIN'T SHIIITTTT ON MY MOMMMAAA!!! YALL ARE ROTTING IN HELL FOR NOT WARNING MEEE OF THIS ABSOLUTE TOMFOOLERY