Just realized I quite literally have no one in my life to talk to about this, so I guess I'm going to just put it here because I'm just going to feel shitter if I don't say anything.
This is also question for all the older siblings out there. Is it just my mom that treats me like this or is this a universal experience for all older siblings? Especially sisters.
So recently I've been wanting to take my hair down, it was a hairstyle I asked for but I'm tired of it now and I don't really like how it was done in the first place. But the thing is, I only mentioned taking it down one time, I already knew not to push it because I never really know what'll make my mom mad.
This morning, I went to the living room, just to say good morning. I was in a good mood and everything, never mentioned my hair. Then my mom starts playing with my hair, like styling it and stuff. And I gently said something barely even mentioning wanting to take it down.
And I guess I should've just shut my mouth because then my God mother (barely consider her that), starts going off on me. Asking me what I'll do after I take it down.
For some context, literally the only thing I can't do is my hair. I can cook, I can clean, I'm good with kids and my siblings and I'm pretty independent overall. It's the only thing I can't do. She always brings that up when she's irritated with me.
So then my mom joins her right, and they start going off at me. Saying I'm too old not to know how to do my hair (I'm 15 but going on 16 in a few months.). And it's not like I don't know that. I feel stupid enough not knowing how to do it.
So now I start trying to backtrack and try explaining that I don't care all that much really. But that made them more upset at me? So upset that the scolding quite literally went to straight up insulting and humiliating me.
For example: Calling me a stud (Something classmates have been calling me that has been bothering me), dumb and stupid, ungrateful. Saying I'm acting like I'm 4.
And when I started crying, they told me to look at them while they talk (They weren't talking, they were actually yelling at me, loud enough to wake my siblings). They knew they hurt my feelings and just kept going and going.
And this isn't the first time either, they always do things like this to me and just me. My siblings get away with shit I can only dream of.
So I just want to know is this normal? Am I doing too much? I just don't understand why it's always me being treated like this just because I'm older.
honestly i have no clue why your mum is acting up like that. it seems a bit weird and patronising, like they're both humiliating you as a form of power? also i'm not really sure what you mean by taking your hair down? can i ask what type of hair you might have because i'm envisioning super straight hair but that may not be the case. also, don't feel shit abt not being able to do your hair lols. i'm 17 and i can barely style it, i'm late to the cosmetic train. hope u feel better, (●'◡'●)ﾉ
im not sure why they're making a big deal out of something so minor, it really isn't normal. unless its something tied to religion or tradition i guess i can comprehend their reaction. im pretty sure you already have the gut feeling that hurting a family member emotionally is not normal and it shouldn't be. if they don't show any signs of remorse or change, try not taking it to the hear since you'll only hurt yourself when you've done nothing wrong
That's verbal abuse. I'm so sorry you went through that. You're only 15. It's ok to not know how to do your own hair yet. You didn't deserve to be yelled at and insulted.
From my experience, people do expect more out of the oldest. I think because we learn to be independent pretty quickly, they expect us to not need help and do everything on our own. And when we fail to meet those expectations, it's somehow worse than when our siblings do.
I'm much older than you and my family still holds those expectations of me. In many ways, I also hold those expectations of myself and they've shaped me in both good and bad ways. Idk what my point is, but I hope you feel better and get to have the hair you want.
I'm black and currently have crochet locs in, a very itchy hairstyle that's not meant to last long (they're quite literally falling out)
But thank you, I'm not feeling much better (They're still going out of their way to upset me whenever I step out of my room)
this is not normal, you're not doing too much, it's just some parents became a parent not bcs they're ready but bcs they want to & a lot of time the first born will be the one to get the most shit from their incapability for being a good parents.. the best thing u could do at that age is suck it up & wait till u can make ur own money to get out of their life. there's another option to make it better tho but it's 30/70 success rate, getting mentally or physically sick to the point you need a doctor or psychiatrist to tell your parents that u're sick because of stress then from there there's around 30% chance they'll try to soften up & listen to u but mostly it became worst so i really recommend to suck it up for a few years to get a job then leave.
and oh actually there's one more option, it's to break down & pour all ur heart down, with anger & cry, don't let them win and keep saying all ur hearts down till they listen, cs that kind of parents can't be approach gently by words i mean the fact that u didn't even talk abt ur hair but it escalated to that means they're not the type to listen but if you become more aggressive than them but not to the point of danger there's a chance they'll listen to you and realize ur feelings. if ur parents a good ppl they might understand but if even after doing that it get worst then I'm sorry..
for me I've experienced both, break down and get sick.. it's sounds like i pretend but no actually i did break down & get sick bcs of stressed they unintentionally put on me bcs of the lack of knowledge abt good parenting & it worked even tho it's kinda messed up with my body at least my stress is lessen & it's getting better slowly but surely.
i know it sounds horrible but this far, that's the only thing that i saw worked for some ppl. i hope u'll find ur way to deal with ur problem & a good luck for u
Y'all what's the name of the one Omega on Omega manhwa?
I really can't remember anything about it but like the top omega was giving the bottom one pills and it was like, unrequited love at the start?
sounds vaguely like omega bite?
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/omega_bite/
Yeah this is it, thank uuu
Topic: Gynecologist
Okay so boom, while I was in class right, I was thinking of future job options. And of course being a coochie doctor came to my mind (Gynecologist). But then it occurred to me that men also want this job.
And to me, that's just plain weird. Like I really don't care that much about the fact you great Grammy died from coochie cancer and that you just want to help women. I promise you bro, there's better jobs out there.
I mean be serious, how can I trust you to tell me anything about a body part you DONT fucking have? Like past everything that you learn in those books in college or whatever, what do they actually know about coochies? Fucking nothing I bet.
I just feel like being a coochie doctor is one of those jobs that only women should have (Along with other ones but y'all ain't ready for that).
Anyways just was just a quick little thought I had and wanted to put out before I took a very long nap
Yap session: concluded
No. As someone who has moved around a lot, I’ve had both male and female gynos. I 100% prefer male gynos. A LOT of other women do as well. I actually came across a post about this the other day on social media.
Many women have talked about how their female gynos have dismissed their concerns as something else, sometimes citing experiences, while their male gyno actually took it seriously and worked with them to figure out what was going on. This was also my own experience as well. I want a doctor that takes my concerns seriously and goes off of facts, not a doctor who THINKS they know better purely because of their biology. I’ve had far worse interactions with female gynos and literally 0 bad interactions with male gynos. That’s not everyones experience, of course. But that’s mine, and many others. If I have the choice, I will absolutely always choose a male over a female gyno.
The part when u said "I want a doctor that takes my concerns seriously and goes off of facts, not a doctor who THINKS they know better purely because of their biology" Never thought of it this way... always assumed women to be better gynaecologists than men because of the very biology. Didn't think the opposite could happen too. Thanks for sharing
Nah some of them are gynos because their moms or a woman they know have gone through ovary cancer or other genital problems, and want to help others. I personally prefer female gynos because not only do I feel safer, but from my own experience, they are much gentler .
I have seen on the internet that there are people who prefer male gynos, but every woman I have met in real life either prefers women or doesn’t have a preference.
And the reputation of male gynos isn’t getting any better when a new one rapes a patient every now and then, the latest I remember being a few months ago of a Belgium gynaecologist student getting away unpunished because he was a “promising doctor.”
How many male gynos have you had vs female ones? There’s just no way I would prefer a male one
3 male, 5 female. I’ve lived in Florida, Washington, Vermont, and Pennsylvania. So also different kinds of areas which can have impacts on healthcare.
If you prefer female gynos and wouldn’t ever want a male, that’s valid. It’s a personal thing. But that doesn’t mean others are going to be the same as you. I’ve had great experiences with each male gyno I’ve seen, and (mostly) bad experiences with the female gynos, except for one who is actually really amazing and delivered my last child.
Topic: Am I really wrong
Chat be real with me, am I wrong for putting hands on my sister? Like actually physically harming her because she pissed me off.
For context about my sister, she is the baby of our family and she's a very unaware selfish and just overly angry person. She literally will walk in a room full of cheerful people and find a way to ruin everyone's day just because she's upset. She's always yelling and being disrespectful, like it gets to a point right?
But the thing is, my mom is always taking her side one way or another. Sure she'll yell at her if she's yelling about nothing (which is almost everyday) but it's never nothing serious you know? That's as far as it goes.
But today I actually managed to have a good day of school, literally I thought nothing could ruin my mood. Then my sister came in, first wearing a hoodie she isn't supposed to be wearing and getting upset when she's told not to wear it anymore. Then even more pissed when she couldn't move her bed around like we didn't have people working on the air conditioning, then when I'm trying to tell her to just calm down she tells ME to shut up. Then I realized she literally had all of my new clothes on that I just got (To the fucking underwear on her ass). But even then, I was going to let it go right?
Then while I'm walking away, she tells me to shut up again with a little too much disrespect in her voice. So I come back, grabbed her shoes, threw them to the ground. Then well, grabbed her by the hair and hit her in the face a couple of times.
And like always, my mom only got mad at me and said next time I hit her she's going to hit me. But like damn, she constantly gets away with the shit but I'm always in the wrong? Like I can't get a pass at all?
So like be dead serious, am I the issue and just not realizing it?
lmao here I was thinking you did a little slap on her arm but instead beat her face tf up
You’re not REALLY wrong but beating her in the face kinda crazy lol.
my take is you shouldn't have hit her face you should just grab her hair because all the moms i know all sided with the one whose been hit first not the situation why did that happened. moms belief if you have fights then don't get physical.
icl gng, I would have whooped her bitchass sooner u too patient u did nun wrong, full support from my side hg Never feel bad about putting someone in place
and your situation screams favoritism.
And here I thought it wasn't even that big of an issue lmaoo
i know violence is not the answer but i'd do the same tbh i would not tolerate that amount of disrespect. also, i highly doubt talking to your sister would do anything, let alone your parents. i pray you can get out of that house as soon as possible
I can see the outerwear but she dipped into the underwear Disrespectful.
yall in the reply section speaks white asf, her sister was clearly in SO WRONG, she should have seen it coming. The user didn't even did shit, it was well deserved. Her patience snapped and she had it coming. If clearly the first adult person in family babies their bitchass, then the second adult takes place in improving. Simple.
You aren't in the wrong in this situation but i think something might be bothering your sister. Could just be her school environment or maybe the phase in life where she's kinda insecure about how she looks or similar to that and that causes her to be angry.
Also your mom might be taking her side because without any support, children (especially since she's younger) might tend to look towards harmful ways to cope. It's still wrong to make it so one sided tho.
My advice would be to try and talk to your sister if she's genuinely ok, try and share your experience in life so she can be comfortable and encourage her to do the same.
Tho if your relation is not as close, it def is gonna be awkward.
that's why i say just grab her hair because hitting her in the face makes the moms feel that one that been first hit is the victim.
Thats just most younger sisters, annoying but once they get older they usually wont be. And the mom always favours the youngest. She is an issue but getting Physical is a big NO. you can find other ways to get back at her without beating her up. Dont do her any favour, treat ur other siblings if u have any better than her, honestly just ignore her whole existence until she acts right. Ive gone without speaking to my sibling for a month
not wrong at all yo. It’s normal for siblings to get down like that and if she continues acting like this whoop her more, don’t listen to anyone telling you to use words or your mom saying she gon hit you back cs if your sister doesn’t want to listen one she has to listen the other, trust me I’m the youngest and whew my sister used to whoop me good (until I started fighting back so yeah beware) but other than that assert dominance I’m telling ya.
Sorry but some siblings need to be whooped. Can't let her go around thinking you're a pushover whose gonna let her take all your shit without a fight.
So just so you know I'm in a black household, there is no talking things out without me being told to shut up and be the bigger person.
I've also have tried talking to my mom about the constant disrespect from her but she basically told me to just ignore her and Lord I wish it was that easy to do
lmaoo , this reply + ur username
Unfortunately my sister has always been this type of angry selfish person, while we typically have a good relationship that's really just because I let a lot of things she does slide.
She probably doesn't understand my experiences in life but I guarantee you she doesn't care, like at all. As long as she keeps getting her way, she's probably never going to care. My mom just doesn't make it better for me lmao
Wish I could but we literally share a room, I can't get away from her if I wanted to.
I do have another sibling, but honestly I do my best to treat them the same. So I can't see myself doing one for the other and not her, so I guess that's just my issue to deal with.
And while I know my sister isn't the only one who's like this, I just feel like she's takes it too far. And I refuse to deal with someone like that who doesn't even listen when you try to explain what they did wrong (hence why I hit her)
I've done the same.
But did it fix her? No.
Did it put her back in her place? No.
Hitting was the outlet of your and my frustration, it rly was never gonna fix them.
I don't have a solution either. Idk how else to get the message across her thick dumb skull
no, bro. i'll give her a nice slapping too, and i won't hesitate to do it again lol
The only reason i disagreed with it is because hitting her will get you nowhere she will just continue being like this and your mum will get mad at you.I have 2 sisters it was lowkey hell growing up we had physical fights and argued so much but it gets better kinda.. i still wanna move out of this house tho. idk why moms have so many kids and favour the youngest its annoying asf. goodluck
If you aren't significantly bigger than her, it's fair game. When I was 25 and my brother was 15 he towered over me so I didn't feel bad about beating his skinny ass down. Sometimes respect needs to be taught by a sibling before they go out into the real world. ¯_(ツ)_/¯
Omgg I literally have the same problem with my little sis 100% and it’s so draining I keep wanting to move out girl
Well having a mom who is like that, no matter what you do, the other child will always be the victim. Lol
The race was unnecessary since you’re reiterating the idea that white people wouldn’t resort to violence but black people wouldn’t hesitate. That statement did more harm than good.
i have been in same exact situation you have been in as an older sister, the exact same. your little sister is in the wrong absolutely, she should not be treating you like that, and the mom needs to stop playing favoritism, however you are in the wrong too, while you have every right to be angry you shouldn't have been the first to throw hands especially in such a manner because not only does it make you look like the problem you could have potentially killed her. one wrong hit in the head can cause death. i understand being angry but we can't always give in to anger. as for what to do i don't recommend talking to your sister, she sees Shes bothering you and doesn't care so really it won't help and never worked for me. yelling and fighting wont make it stop either. you need to have a heart to heart with your mom about it. tell her how you feel and how things look to you, as the parent she has the power to change things, but you have to be mature about it not winey. i was winey and she didn't listen. so think about what you need to say and don't throw it at her because if she feels attacked even if its the truth, she will see you as the problem only. if she won't listen, your gonna have to push through till you can get out, put distance between you and your sister. dont even respond to her. and hide your clothes, do your own Laundry, and find a style that you like that she hates. i got into alt kawaii. if you guys have different body types, get clothes that only look good on you, she never took my clothes again.
I never mentioned black lmao, and as a half white person, I know what I am speaking. So lol.
Then why mention race at all if you yourself are half white? I’m black which is why I mentioned black and some of the comments said they were black as well. Bringing up race in this situation served no purpose.
mannnnnn sit your ass back down , broski getting triggered for nothing. Like I saw other comments stating what the user was. There are people other than whites and blacks, you do fckin know right? are you mentally challenged? Like are you fckin srs rn? Being this sensitive over nothing is crazy.
The way you communicate tells me you’re only a pre-teen and don’t actually understand the weight of what you said and how I replied. It’s clear you can’t put my sentence and your statement together so the conversation ends here. Your statement would have applied to people of color regardless of the specified race. Overall, mentioning race was unnecessary and spazzing out asking if I have a disability because I said it was irrelevant is childish, JungkooksUsedCondom
Just cause someone doesn't wanna be overly sensitive about something like your ass they become pre teen? LMFAOOOOOOOOO, I don't fckin understand where would you come up with that conclusion about BLACK PEOPLE? like are you actually fckin stupid? I had no fckin idea that the fckin user was black, I never fckin compared races, your stupid sensitive ass came up with that like there aren't any races other than whites and blacks. Like syfm dawg. The sentence was so fckin obvio A JOKE, it just meant as they are soft with each other and let there child slide. I NEVER SAID anything like "oH bLacK pEoplE wOn'T heSiTaTe" Like YOU JUST HAD TO BRING BLACK SOMEHOW. Is that how you fckin play victim everywhere and drag shit? You just had to push it thru like a bitch, who only thinks every sentence meant is racist like holy fck calm down. AND ALSO The user who was meant for wasn't even fazed. Its not that fckin deep dang. Everything doesn't need to be overfckin analyzed. And this is fckin internet, and also the last place where I wanna agrue with a person here. Like damn. Sit tf down.
LMAO YOU THOUGHT BLOCKING ME WOULD GET RID OF ME? nu uh.
Just cause someone doesn't wanna be overly sensitive about something like your ass they become pre teen? LMFAOOOOOOOOO, I don't fckin understand where would you come up with that conclusion about BLACK PEOPLE? like are you actually fckin stupid? I had no fckin idea that the fckin user was black, I never fckin compared races, your stupid sensitive ass came up with that like there aren't any races other than whites and blacks. Like syfm dawg. The sentence was so fckin obvio A JOKE, it just meant as they are soft with each other and let there child slide. I NEVER SAID anything like "oH bLacK pEoplE wOn'T heSiTaTe" Like YOU JUST HAD TO BRING BLACK SOMEHOW. Is that how you fckin play victim everywhere and drag shit? You just had to push it thru like a bitch, who only thinks every sentence meant is racist like holy fck calm down. AND ALSO The user who was meant for wasn't even fazed. Its not that fckin deep dang. Everything doesn't need to be overfckin analyzed. And this is fckin internet. Like damn. Sit tf down.
AND USING MY OTHER ACC'S USERNAME AS AN INSULT IS FUNNYYYYYYYYYY Had a good laugh thank you. This mf wants me to put my govt username or sum. Get a load of this stupid user I can tell you are insufferable in real life.
Like I said, you’re a child and accessing your other account to say something to me I won’t be reading. I said the conversation was over, so it was over. You’re being sensitive and childish.
Topic: Insecure people
Now I know the topic is crazy, but y'all have to hear out. Especially because usually I make these rants late at night but this shit actually just fried me so bad, I HAVE to speak on it.
Being friends or just trying to comfort an insecure person, is fucking hell. Especially when they really don't want the help, or fuck it, they don't know what they want in general but they won't shut up about it.
For example: Calling themselves ugly in front of you and when you tell them they aren't (regardless if they are or not), they start talking about how negative positivity is ruining the world.
Like bitch what? Would you rather me Agree and tell you you're the ugliest thing I've seen all day? Because I promise you I'm tempted. And then they swear on everyone's soul that their being misunderstood. Like no girl, you actually just don't want my comfort you just want to yap my ear off about your insecurities and you want me to just listen even though it's hard to listen to.
Like, I'm sorry I don't want to hear every bad thing you think about yourself? I'm just trying to have a normal conversation with you, y'know, like normal friends do? I'm not your fucking therapist or anything. And it's even worse when they just say it out of nowhere, like at LEAST give me a warning.
So if you're one of these please understand you're MAD annoying to talk to, like actually. Even if the people around you say otherwise. Trying being considerate and shutting your mouth!
Yap session: Concluded.
wow you seem like a great friend. why do you still hang out with those people if you find them so annoying? my personal yap addition to your yap is how people have the audacity to say all of this and still think "i just want to be normal friends and have normal conversations". you're the one n control of your environment and if you're still friends with those so called annoying people you call friends then you're your own problem. they cant help themselves, you can't help them, and clearly, you're not helping yourself either staying in this superficial friendship. yap addition concluded.
i agree. i feel bad for insecure ppl bc ik they have a lot of issues they need to resolve themselves. had a friend i used to talk to a lot, he always put himself down. (nothing bad happened between us, just grew distant bc of life)
i just really wish they would put the energy of pitying themselves to some kind of change. it must tiring, always doing the same thing and complaining that nothing better is happening.
i used to be like this too in my younger years, but there's just a point in life where you need to take responsibility of the things you CAN control. (And stop putting all the pressure/responsibility to others)
tldr, i feel bad for insecure people. but they also need to put their big pants on and try living at some point. or dont ig! not my problem :P
Honestly? You really just clocked my shit, can't even lie. Personally, I try not to be a hypocrite about things but I guess this is just one of those things that I'm being one about.
I hate when people stay in relationships they don't like and complain about it, so it's kinda crazy that I'm doing that right? Truthfully though I've never stayed a hypocrite long, so I will be hitting that block button today!!!
Topic: Selfish people
I HATE HATE HATE selfish people. I hate inconsiderate, selfish pricks who only has the brain capacity to think of themselves. It's so fucking annoying dealing with selfish people because it's the little things that do that really get to you.
Like always complaining and getting upset about things that can easily be fixed or that just aren't that serious, but because they're inconvenienced they make it everyone's problem and never shut up about it. And if you try to tell them that, they get even more upset.
And y'know? It's even worse when you have to live with the selfish person in question (I mean all of this in general but some of this is targeted).
Like with gatekeepers, at least you don't have to deal with it 24/7, same thing with friends who just clearly never had to share growing up. I can deal with those types of selfish people, but God is living with them even more infuriating.
Like omfg, we already have to share a room and your on the phone loud as fuck ALL FUCKING DAY, I have to deal with the slick shit you say, but on top of that when I ask you to stop fucking yell after dealing with it all day, you tell me no?
Be honest chat, if I hit her ass right now would I be wrong?
Other selfish things ppl do that I hate: Taking things without asking, laughing at me when I'm being dead ass, agreeing to do something with me but making me wait till your done talking to your friends, sleeping on the phone with ppl that are constantly loud ASF when I'm trying to sleep, not doing something exactly when it's asked of you, and so much more shit I've forgotten.
Yap session: concluded.
I agree, majority of the things you mentioned abt the other person clearly just doesn’t show basic respect
Selfish people get more selfish when they're uncomfortable or hurting, so if you hit her ass you'll make it worse probably. Good luck, buddy, you can survive this!
What I hate the most is arguing with them, like seriously they will make the most absurd illogical argument to justify themselves and funny part? they actually believe that they are correct.
And if you offend them the same way they did to you? they will hurt you so much. I feel like they are sucking life out of me.
Topic: My childhood stuffie.
Is this a safe place to say that I feel like having plushies as a child literally carries childhoods? I hope so because I miss mine.
His name was Mr.fluffy. He was a stuffed dog a got on Valentine's day, he was a soft light blue color and holding a pink heart, with round beaded eyes that were so cute. I'll probably never forget him.
He was there in every single one of my memories as a child, even as he got uglier as the years went on. (His stuffing was spilling out and one of his eyes were long gone, not to mention all the ashes he had in his skin, burn marks and the fact we ripped his heart off). But he still meant something to me y'know?
Unfortunately my mom threw him out when I turned ten and gaslit me into thinking I just lost him (which isn't possible I literally kept him in my bed all day everyday), because I was too old to have one. But I miss him so much everyday, I hate that I can't remember his smell or how he looked clearly.
I got a build a bear to try and replace him, but of course I didn't care about it like I did with fluffy. Now everyone is upset that like 100 and something dollars were spent on a beat I don't give a shit about, but I just want Mr.fluffy back.
Yap session: concluded.
(P.S: I will be back on my usual bullshit topics)
what is it with children and always naming their stuffed animals “Mr ___”? create memories with a new stuffed animal in his honor, and keep your mother away from this one. you could even name it “mr fluffy junior”.
I rlly think that family members shouldn't meddle with stuffs especially when you've had it for years.
I too, had a betty boop toy that I've had since I was 6 and it's been with me till this day. it holds a special place in my heart, probably cuz it was given by my mother and it's been my best friend cuz I wasn't allowed to go out. It makes me feel happy and at ease.
anw ur poor mr.fluffy def misses u too, it just sucks that they had to throw it away when it can just be fixed and it holds dear memories of ur childhood. any new stuffies can't replace mr.fluffy.
although customizing a new one that looks exactly like mr.fluffy might work, you'll prolly feel diff abt it cuz it's not your original "mr.fluffy" do u perhaps have photos with it cuz so if u ever want to customize one. u can just think of it as mr.fluffy coming back after goin on vacation for years
100%, childhood stuffies carry childhoods, although, I do wanna talk about a childhood blanket of mine with a similar story
I had this pink blanket stripes on one side and I think flowers on the other(Sadly dont remember anymore) I've had the blanket since I was around 7 - 8, I would parade around my house with it, it was the only blanket I would ever use all the time, just one day I couldnt find it, and only found out my mom threw it away because it had a stain that wouldn't come off. I was 12-13 at the time, but in all honesty I cried about it
I find it kinda unbelievable someone can grab another person's things and decide on their own to just throw it away, even if theyre family, or very close. I understand trying to help clean someone's room up, or whtv, but I dont know, just because something doesnt hold dear to you, doesnt mean it doesnt hold dear to someone else. But obv the unbelievable happened to me.
And I'm sure Mr.Fluffy misses you as much as you do, nothing can replace the original ^_^
Sadly for me I have no pictures or nothing of him, even though I had him for so long I never thought to take pictures with him, because I never thought he would leave me but hopefully in the future I can customize one
Chat please, read this. I don't care if you only read BL or GL, shit or just action. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JUST READ THIS.
Period (Yaoi)
(Lmao couldn't get the link so just type that in and it'll show up).
Pls just read it, then read it one more time to really let it sink in.
Who is the author?
Is this what u were talking abt?:
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/period/
i read this & idk how to feel about it..... someone tell me how to feel about it.....
Yep, I literally don't know why I couldn't get the link
Hopefully despair!
Topic: Labels.
I realized I haven't been on my bullshit lately and then a thought crept into my mind like that fucking centipede that crawled between my ass in the third grade.
Why does everything have to have a damn label? Why do we have to be this or that? Why do I have to be a boy or girl, or non binary? Can't I just be me? Why does it matter if I kiss boys or girls? Why do I have to wear pants or a skirt? Why does it matter if I know the name of the exact style I dress?
What does anything matter?
Recently someone said It's weird to not have a label on yourself, to not "know" your true identity. But honestly, I don't wake up and look in the mirror just to see a lesbian or a gay person, a boy a girl. None of that. I wake up and I see myself.
Can't I just be me? Rina?
At this point everything I say is one big rehearsal. Oh what's my gender? A girl! What's your sexuality? Oh pan! What's your style? Haha just basic stuff!
Like goddamn. Can't I just wake up and be gorgeous and just myself?
This life shit is getting out of hand.
Yap session: Concluded!!
No, a label doesn’t define your whole being—but in a world that constantly tries to generalize or erase difference, labels give people the power to assert who they are on their own terms. Labels are important, for example if you’re trans and going on a date, being upfront about your identity allows the other person to make informed choices and ensures that any connection is built on authenticity, not assumptions.
im gonna copy ur yap session word for word and submit this as my application to yale cuz ur writing is fire !?!?!
Even the centipede part?
as someone who doesn't use labels, I think, respectfully, you should try getting to know people and let them get to know you.
it adds a uniqueness to it
Topic: My mindset (?)
So boom, I just finished my homework right? And while I was doing it, I was remembering a conversation I had with an ex friend a while back.
Basically she said I was weird and insensitive with how I handle certain situations and really my whole life in general (which is why we don't talk now). And now that I'm thinking about it I've never really thought of how she came to that conclusion. So I thought I'd just Yap about it here and get it off my chest.
First, I don't like being hung up on things I know I can't change. For example, I'm poor? Well shit, guess I'm poor. My pants ripped and I didn't bring a spare? Okay, guess everyone knows what color my panties are. My five year situationship just ended? Not much I can do, he doesn't like me anymore.
Also I don't like letting myself get upset y'know? Not saying I don't cry and get mad it's just when I do, I don't let it last long. So if someone where to just insult me badly or I got into a bad argument, after about an hour I'm already letting it go and if they aren't ready to I just leave them alone until they get over it and I'm not going to go out of my way to make you feel better.
I also don't like acting like I'm this perfect person y'know? Like I'm probably the biggest hypocrite I know. Like yes, I just laughed at the kid falling and busting her lip and yes I just called this person a dumbass bitch even though they did nothing wrong to me and I think I'm better than a lot of people for no reason. I literally don't care, I get it's not the right thing to do or whatever but people do much worse than me.
and I refuse to say sorry if I don't mean it or really anything at all if I don't mean it. I'm literally always going to say what I'm feeling, fuck how you feel about it. And I guess that's probably what people don't like about me.
Just wanna know tho, am I really that bad lmao?
Yap session: Concluded.
why is this me, except for this part "and I refuse to say sorry if I don't mean it or really anything at all if I don't mean it. I'm literally always going to say what I'm feeling, fuck how you feel about it.", I want to be like that tbh, but I just hate starting arguments, like don't want to waste my time on those emotions/feelings
Lol, I don't think your bad.
I'm the same as you the only extra things is that I don't really care, so I just say whatever I know will please you and make you rely on me then when you actually need me I'm just gonna fuck you up
My mom always says it baɗ but I didn't start it and If I've moved on so will they eventually. So carry on the way you are not everyone is meant to be in your life. Those that don't mind your personality will always stay.
Pardon me but fuck your so called friend, live your life honey you only got one after all
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