If mc thinks he has to give up on ml at some point why would he agree to date
I find a lot of these doomer characters adopt an "if it will end eventually, I might as well enjoy it" only to be constantly anxious about that vague end.
It's the fight between wanting to give in and be happy, but too insecure to think it's something they can keep/deserve. Almost like they view themselves as a placeholder till their partner finds someone "better"
Honestly I would've just killed myself if I were yigon, like, what does he have to live tor anyway. He doesn't have anyone he could trust either, and if he goes to a psychologist or something, his brother would probably get intel on the meetings, so yigon is completely alone in this world, poor baby









Omg I knew it was gonna be a car crash I felt it all along