Look, how interesting.
At first she didn't care, because she made some initial conclusions and calmed down, without going into details.
Then she felt too bad about Mincheol, and she tried to somehow survive this betrayal, and she didn't care about Taeha, she was just thankful that he was there.
And now, finally, everything is getting better for her, without any looming problems and pain, she has the resource to look back at her life and the realization falls on her that she doesn't know anything about him, but wants to know.
Lord.
THE PSYCHOLOGY OF THIS STORY IS WRITTEN AWESOMELY.
I'm ready to kiss the author's hands.
I don't know, it felt like he did a 180 too quickly. Or maybe he's just a neurodivergent dude who rationalizes things too much. But that moment with trying to jerk off to work out that you're ready for gay sex is super believable. I know one straight guy who did the same thing.
Well, it's strange story. A gay fell in love with a straight guy, fell in love aggressively - actively conquered the straight guy. The straight guy considered himself more of a gray asexual. Well, and in life he is quite open-minded, and a very gentle, kind person, respectful of other people's feelings. So he decided to try to respond to the gay's feelings.
But before that, he watched tons of gay porn and tried in every way to see if he could have gay sex with this gay guy. He tried to adjust himself.
In the end they dated for a couple of years, the straight guy's brain was really broken by this relationship, while he was adjusting himself to the gay reality. The gay guy eventually left him (he just grew up and fell out of love), although the straight guy planned to be with him, well ... like forever (he is very faithful and responsible).
Now they are good friends. Since the breakup they have not dated anyone else, really. This relationship crushed them both.
But the straight man is focused on relationships with women in the future, because his psyche could barely bear the attempt to become gay, and he then spent a year treating his head.
Hope, both of them will be happy in the end with soneone else. Their story was freaking beautiful in the beginning, but the end was kinda... ugly. I'm really sorry for the straight one.
Well, nothing really happened from his words, he was just pretty young - only 21 when they met, much younger than the straight guy. While they were dating, he matured a lot, maybe he was just tired of feeling younger, or he realized that he didn't really want a serious adult relationship, or maybe he didn't get the love he needed.
When they broke up, he was very tormented by the feeling of guilt that he was leaving the straight guy, because straight guy had done a lot for him (like he chandged his life for the better like... ten times) and all that.
But now he lives his youth peacefully, hangs out with friends his age, and is not looking for new serious relationships. I think he is just not ready yet and that's ok.
As for the year of treatment for the straight guy's head - the breakup broke him very much. It was hard for him to go through it, he had to get his psyche in order, take some meds so as not to go crazy from all the anxiety, and all that.
He's one of the strongest people mentally from ones I know, and I thought he was very self-sufficient, so it was scary how it destroyed him. I don't know much, but even from the outside it was super terryfing, how the person just kind of died whike still alive. Well... he really believed that they were together forever. It's not surprising that it was a big blow to him. But he's okay now, I think. I hope.









That's the beauty of it, that it's not real - the heavy thoughts about hemorrhoids, incontinence and multiple injuries to internal organs don't spoil the fun. Not to mention that we don't need to talk about coprophilia and all that (rimming on this scale is almost an enema).