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i want to treat this as a reddit forum lol so let me start

i am homoerotically hopelessly inlove w my bestfriend. like no joke if u remember me i posted about my bestfriend last year to. the shtick is i am entering uni soon and its a prestigious one where you have to write essays for scholarships im scared of leaving her and us growing apart because she was such a major part in my life to the point that she’s essential to me. its vacation right now so we dont hang out as much as we used to and i feel kinda bummed yk,,,, cuz we promised eo if we still dont have a lover by the time we’re 25 were gnna date eo lol

also shes the proofreader for the fics i post at ao3 so it means i put a great deal of trust in her. TLDR: should i confess or no

i am homoerotically hopelessly sappily inlove with my best friend

i have a crush on her for 4 years now and it's so bad. It was valentines and i gave her her fav chocolate and like she gave me a fucking banana in exchange but that's so loveable about her. She gained a new friend like just this week and they're already so close it kind of pisses me off bc i am hopeless and in no point of return i kiss her on the cheek as a joke BUT IT WAS NEVER A JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!! i go to her house often (like twice a week and i sleep over there alot) and im close to her family to the point that i get invited in their familial occasions. a bunch of her clothes are in my house and a bunch of mine are in hers. i even know her phone password and she lets me play stupid subway surfers. i treat her everytime we go out even if im broke. im thinking of getting a job at this café we frequently go into... i even serenaded her and everyone thinks were dating but shes so dense FUCKKKKKKK IM SO HOPELESS chat am i cooked

i am so bitchless i dont know why... all my friends literally pull except for me

I think i am decent looking to say the least and i get compliments about my face,,, im also pretty friendly and have no problems socializing, i play the guitar and i draw,,, i have a lot of friends too

i just don't understand why i don't pull is it because i read bareback gay porn here in mangago or what

just a thought, it's very damaging to ur self esteem to not have anyone like you when you're still young, nonetheless I still believe ill find love someday (,,,hopefully)