this was nice, but i wish we got a more definitive close on gyoon and jihye - they just went abroad with no one seeing them off and it wasn’t even explicitly stated when they left, plus we didn’t see much of them after they had sex. but a very lovely story overall - oh, and i wish i saw hyunho getting together with someone. if namwoo isn’t straight, i ship them
the first two parts, even a little bit of the third part, was so exhausting. the way they argue about every small thing, and also hide everything from each other is so annoying - they refuse to communicate about the things that matter and then blow up at each other when it gets too much.
euntak, my baby, as much as i love him, he needs to get whacked in the head to gain some sense - and that’s exactly what the second accident gave him he pursues dojae knowing full well the guy doesn’t like him+only wants him for sex, yet he makes up all of these fantasies in his mind. and i get that - his crush is willing to date him, why wouldn’t he imagine them getting together in the end. but his problem is that he gets too in his head and lets it interfere with reality. also the other issue is that he cares too much about what other people, but i also get it. i’m also queer, i cant just come out to my family bc theyre so homophobic, but it’s also such a struggle on dojae’s side too - he doesn’t understand how things work in a conventional manner, and i can imagine how confusing it must’ve been for a guy who was so obviously making heart eyes at him at every opportunity, finally get with him and then want to hide their relationship. that’s also so hurtful, the fact that you’re in a happy relationship but being forced to be hidden away - i understand its obviously bc of the blatant homophobia, and euntak would proudly parade around with dojae in a better world, but it doesn’t lessen the hurt. also the thing with euntak is that he expects dojae to read his mind. even after they overcame everything in parts one and two and he figured how to work around dojae’s disorder, he expects dojae to read his mind and act like a perfect partner which isn’t realistic.
dojae, god help me. he’s so hot, but so infuriating yk for their three date agreement, i was so sure that euntak said dojae couldnt see anyone else and he agreed to that but idk? and i don’t understand why dojae didn’t stay monogamous during that time - it has nothing to do with feelings but whatever. i understand bc of his disorder he can be frustrating, but that can’t be an excuse for everything. i’m sure it gets exhausting having to deal with it constantly. like, he can be such a hypocrite - he goes and sees another woman after going on a date with euntak, but gets upset when he saw euntak and hyuk hugging? he gets upset about euntak being shirtless AT THE BEACH, while he himself is shirtless. euntak has so much patience, bc even if i were to date dojae and know that he could be exhausting, whenever he were to act like a hypocrite, i would smack him with a brick or smth idk
overall, i do think they’re cute together and their softer, fluffier scenes were so nicely done. i wish they weren’t so sex-centred, but sigh, this IS a bl after all, why would i expect them to talk and be domestic when they could be having sex instead (pls note my sarcasm ) i loved part three the most - they were the most settled and domestic, and their arguments were very short. not to mention the comedic nature made it a lot more enjoyable to read, i was giggling at everything like theyre so dumb but i love them
i wish hyuk and hyobin could get a spin off, theyre such a cute couple as well and i love puppy tops and hyuk is the CUTEST. i’m not gonna say much about the side stories, bc i was reading them when they were getting uploaded weekly and you can find my comments about me agonising with each update LMFAO. i hate it when authors make side stories angsty, LIKE WE ALREADY WENT THROUGH HELL IN THE MAIN STORY, LET THEM BE HAPPY IN THE SIDES??
oh also, i usually don’t like to make comments about the uploaders and ik icarus is everywhere uploading stories i love, but the deku and shiggy art is fucking insane man. saying people need to get help if they can’t differentiate between fiction and reality is the dumbest thing ever. brother, YOU need help you’re the one shipping a CHILD (14/15 years old) with an adult (shiggy is 20/21) like you can’t be serious but anyways
anyways, i’m tapping out - i can’t do it anymore. i know the angst and miscommunication is gonna be tew much for me at some point and theyre not gonna have their happy ending anytime soon and i can’t handle waiting for an update every wednesday, not to mention the regular hiatuses as well as the ones in between seasons. i hope this ends soon so i can finally binge it without the anxiety of knowing it’s not gonna end well
also, they so so so remind me of “i have a feeling you got everything you wanted and you’re not wasting time stuck here like me you’re just thinking its a small thing that happened the world ended when it happened to me”
at least it was short lived but have these two learnt nothing from all their previous miscommunication i get sasya’s mental illness and his constant insecurity, so i can’t really be too harsh or expect him to communicate too ‘effectively’ but sometimes it gets to a point bc if karel were meeting up with another man in secret, you just know sasya wouldve relapsed and packed his bags then fled
ik guwon didnt kill jinwoo’s dad, but get that whacko out of my face popped out like “surprise shawty!” GO AWAY
also, i hope the hounds with the red hair and the long hair are hot - if they’re gonna be twisted like guwon, i at least need them to be some good eye candy
Lmaoooo
only on chapter twenty, but it’s like dumb and dumber - the misunderstandings they make on purpose is killing me how far can you be in lalaland to misconstrue every single word
it's gonna get better in later chapters trust meee
yeah i finished it that night, it was a good story. i just wish they were harsher on the father
re-reading this bc it’s so much different to read it completed, than me sitting patiently in 2023 for updates and having to jump to zinchangmanga’s absolutely butchered translations bc there was no official english translations out
im gonna focus on leewons dad here - i absolutely hate that man’s guts. he should’ve been the one to die instead of su-yeon. honestly, a lot of what happened is bc of him - but don’t take this as me excusing caeser’s actions, bc hes still a rapist regardless - but mikhail is such a selfish bastard, i despise him so much.
he left baby leewon and su-yeon, bc he didn’t want them to get caught up in his mafia bullshit and he made that woman be miserable for the rest of her life right up until her deathbed, and he doesn’t regret his decision to leave and he says he would do it again, yet he drags leewon into the mafia?? COME ON NOW. he talks about how his son should have a good, civilian life, yet he announces leewon as his heir and begs him to be his successor. he forces leewon to be by his side and take care of him, and he has issues with leewons relationships?? so much fucking audacity for such a fucking deadbeat piece of shit. leewon is a pushover to a fault - he knows how to stand his ground, but ultimately he has too big of a heart and sticks by mikhail’s side. the fact that mikhail made su-yeon miserable for no reason, just to endanger her son pisses me off so much. he puts leewon through so much shit. and honestly, caeser is low-key right bc with the way mikhail acts, youd think he wants to fuck leewon. he’s so clingy and obsessed with leewon. the way he takes up so much of leewons time and still begs and cries for more, and guilt trips him, oh please man. i wish caeser would just go and shoot that old fucking hag
ik i said this already, but it really fucking irks me how mikhail says he doesn’t regret his decision and he’d do it again to protect them, yet he keeps putting leewon in more and more danger. and before anyone says anything, no it doesn’t matter that they met when mikhail was stepping down - hes still very involved with that syndicate and when vladimir was hospitalised, who stepped up? mikhail, exactly. hes just genuinely such a piece of shit.
and let me just say, everyone defending caeser needs to get their head checked. yeah he wasn’t raised in a normal way, but what? so he gets a free pass to go raping leewon??? you can see in the first 40 chapters how he doesn’t push leewon’s boundaries for sex. yeah he’s overly touchy and annoying, but when leewon wasn’t in the mood or that time his stomach growled (while they were making out, i think), caeser knew to pull back. yes, sasha raised him to be a killing machine - not to be a rapist. caeser may not know how to show affection the way you and i do, but he does know what consent is and im tired of people acting like he doesn’t
Wow you really hv so much in mind
side stories are supposed to be happy and fluffy WHY ARE WE GETTING MISCOMMUNICATION AND ANGST LET MY BABIES BE HAPPY
i was kinda lost bc the last time i read it was last year, but the sides were great too. man when yohan’s master died, that was so sad my poor baby i hate that fuckass fox. bro and then gunoh and his father, the way he kept chanting dad, i was sobbing my eyes out, i’m still sniffling and the baby deer, that was so horrible urgh
so glad to see yohan and gunoh finally got together though, been waiting for it to happen forever. and the snake sex HELLO?? i love how freaked out chaewool is