taekang is still not humbled. the audacity to be shocked that he’s also a villain in yigon’s life
Yeah, he only realized the gravity of his past actions in this chapter. What Taekang said also serves as a good slap in the face for those readers who used to justify his actions behind the "they were only in a contractual relationship" excuse. Like no matter the nature of their past relationship, he has no right to be cruel to Yigon
he's got so many things to apologize and atone for, which is not just him telling yigon he's delusional and that he's annoying. he also raped yigon, manipulated him, and didn't have the courtesy to treat him as a human being. he's essentially no different than yigon's brother for exploiting yigon's vulnerability for his own gain at all costs. he's so close to recognizing it, but he doesn't bc he doesn't want to take responsibility and admit how shitty he actually is.
the comments section here is so brutal towards yigon and it feels like a broader social commentary on victims and survivors of violence and abuse. why can't you just tell someone about it? why can't you just leave? why can't you fight back? why can you operate in this capacity but not that? without knowing how much strength it takes to fight back against an entity that's been actively working to erode away at every safety net that could be available for you so you have no place to go.
I remember Taekang thought to himself that he should thank Hakyung for giving him the opportunity to use Yigon, so yeah I do wonder why people used to defend him, while in the same breath victim-blamed Yigon and called him stupid for obeying his brother. What you said is right, I've lost count on how many times people belittled victims of abuse–especially domestic abuse, because they kept going back to their abuser every time the abuser 'apologized'.
What these people don't realize is that the abuser wasn't just physically tormenting the victim, but also made them emotionally or financially dependent on them that it's hard to break away. Yigon's case is pretty similar, imo. His mental state and trauma response is a product of YEARS of abuse. Even after Hakyung spelled it out for them in this chapter, I still saw some comments questioning why Yigon can only act brave against Taekang and not his brother, or even demanding that Yigon can be a 'smart PTSD character'. Really shows you how they don't understand what abuse did to the victims.
Moreover, Yigon never had an adult to rely on and support him during his childhood. The only person whom he thought cared for him turned out to be a manipulative abuser who always watched his every move and would kill him if an opportunity arrives. It doesn't take a genius to conclude that of course Yigon would have tremendous fear towards Hakyung and find it hard to refuse him.
luan grew up to be a pos, he doesn’t deserve forest guy. he had such a fixed image in his mind of what his beau is supposed to look like that he didn’t even try to see him for who he grew up to be, uncalled for violence aside. since luan’s on the cover i’m guessing there’s gonna be some sort of redemption in the side stories but i’d rather forest guy let his affections for him die and genuinely get with some nobody that loves him the way he deserves to be loved. luan can die alone in despair, what an asshole.
I agree that what he did was wrong and totally valid if he isn't forgiven but at the same time, I see why he reacted that way after being constantly lied to and deceived that he ended up releasing his frustration on the wrong guy. At the end of the story you could tell he was just tweaking out lowkey
the author understands me. seonwoo is my ideal type of bottom too and i was soo happy for the representation. the story itself however was really upsetting. it might as well be a tragedy bc even tho they're together, seonwoo and yujeong don't make each other better and don't seem to know how to make each other better. they come across pretty miserable to me. i can't even enjoy the sex bc it's not hot or romantic and the fragility of their relationship totally comes thru. it's so depressing to see seonwoo readjust so many parts of himself and his life to accommodate yujeong. there's no compromise at all.
some story beats that made me feel some type of way:
- why did seonwoo abandon med school the first time when he was so close to finishing?? unless he was really going thru something it just seemed like a really short sighted move to make and such a convoluted way for him to reunite with yujeong.
- i get yujeong's feeling of inferiority. i really do. and maybe he can't see it, but i would've thought seonwoo could help him reframe his experiences in a different light. idk how job hunting in korea works but at least with seonwoo's med school mates he didn't have to mention dropping out of hs (not that there's anything wrong with it). like he could just say he's in hospitality?? and if he's really feeling it he can take part time classes to get a ged or something. it seems like he's just always been an angry asshole who never even tried to work on himself.
- tbh yeah yujeong is gorgeous but it's wild that his beauty is the only thing living rent free in seonwoo's head for 10 years...and his beauty is enough to absolve everything...
- the author thinks that seonwoo is perfect but he is so incredibly flawed and has a few screws loose.
- i can't get over how juvenile and sheltered their relationship feels for a couple in their 30s










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