The yearning fell flat for me tbh, I think because we never really saw them being happy together in any significant way. Most of the flashbacks were to MC ignoring ML and ML not saying anything about it. So we're just told they had a happy relationship with nothing to back it up. ¯_(ツ)_/¯ Rufus' facial expressions were the best part for me.
Real grossed out by the last part of his whole “would you still like me?” speech. “Even If I shoved whatever I want all the way inside you no matter how much you say it hurts?” The fuck was that, man?? He’s been pretty great overall so it seemed way out of character.
RIGHTTTT like what a weird attempt at confirming something
im p sure its js dirty talk a lot of couples tend to do that & it turns them on
That was definitely the intention but still weird af like even for dirty talk that's a bit to much
I think that was a way for him to express the intensity of his desire for him and maybe a concern about a potential lack of self control... like, would you still love me if my lust got the best of me? I definitely got weirded out by that part as well but thinking about it in that angle makes it a bit better for me, especially with Moonie noding, probably sharing the same desires and concerns
It really bothered me a lot too
Nah it was definitely just dirty talk, a lot of people are into that kind of fantasy and way of talking. They were both v heated and you could see it was working uke up too
Yeah I mean that was probably the point, it just rubbed me the wrong way. Not like "Han-gun is a monster" kind of way, just... puzzled and icked out.
Maybe I've been scarred by how much yaoi sex is actually like that, lol.
I can see that, I think the amount of yaoi sex that's actually just... like that... makes me slow to give the benefit of the doubt.
I agree LOL but he's been really sweet so far and you can see that it's actually working in turning his partner on PLUS he's asking, it's dirty talk but I do think if his partner wasn't getting heated up and nodding along that he would have snapped out of it. A lot of super sweet people become freaky deaky in the sheets and I think that's him LOL but I do 100% understand the doubt and ig we'll just have to see if he falls into the same patterns
The whole business arrangement sex partners thing really IS miserable. No one is enjoying this. Real talk, MC deserved to be dumped but ML is being a dick about it. He’s like a hot brick wall, only less talkative. And barring extreme circumstances, dumping someone you were with for three years over text is fucking COLD and very douchey.
EXACTLY.
Yeah, the ML is a dick through and through. MC is no saint, but ML pisses me off.
I’m at the point where we discover MC never even knew what his boyfriend of three years did for a living or majored in in college… how even… ?? So it’s a dick/dick relationship in more ways than one.
Goddamn, three YEARS and he didn't know the most fundamental things about his boyfriend? He should've gotten dumped sooner. The ex deserves way better.
They’re the definition of the “healthy, loving relationship” > “nasty, dirty sex” meme
This is how you do hot smut, authors take note. They’re both into it, imagine that!
It sucks that Jiwon wants to keep them a secret, but I’m surprised by people who don’t understand why he would want that. In addition to living in a very homophobic country, they are two public figures. It’s not a matter of just telling their friends, because things like that don’t stay a secret once they’re out in the world. That’s a lot of pressure and attention - likely negative attention - and scrutiny for anyone, but especially someone who deals with social anxiety like Jiwon does. He doesn’t want to be recognized on his college campus, so imagine having the whole country prying into and judging his personal life. This is leaving aside any trauma he may have regarding the issue of his sexuality. It’s definitely not a cut and dried situation, and definitely not a decision to make on a whim.
OOF. Honestly I get why Won said it though. Han-Gun means well but he knows that his abusive father constantly yells at him and now he's out here yelling at him because he doesn't feel like he can leave his situation right now. Won has been constantly fed the message that what he thinks or wants or needs doesn't matter and whether you agree with what he wants in this situation or not, Han-Gun is another person discounting his feelings when the situation is literally ABOUT HIM, and doing so in a very triggering way. I'm actually proud of Won for standing up for himself, everything else aside.
On Han-Gun's side, he's just frustrated and feeling helpless. He's a kid and he doesn't know how to navigate PTSD and the trauma of abuse, or understand why Won would want to stay in his current situation when he doesn't "have to." They're both lashing out and they're both wrong and right in their own way.
I keep wanting to just let this marinate until the angst is over but I can't help myself. The moon lollipop as his profile picture... the author is really piling on the sweetness before stabbing us all in the gut.
That smash-faced motherfucker is the worst kind of person. Once he feels belittled or humiliated, he's never going to let it go. I wish Han-gun had just tipped off his parole officer and let him dig his own grave. He'd still hold a grudge but maybe he wouldn't have been able to get that photo.
Also personally really happy we didn't see more explicit smut at this point. Skipping to the morning after felt more in line with the story.
That was BRUTAL. I felt so bad for Hyun, like if I found out that the person I loved was essentially with me out of guilt or a sense of obligation I would be UNWELL. I get that Yui has basically no sense of self or normalcy so in that regard I see his side of things but goddamn. Goddamn.