Hmm, according to what Majjip said, Jian can’t even masturbate, so I wonder what kind of trauma made him like that when it comes to sex. Does he really have to be high to have sex?
I used to think Jian might at least touch himself while thinking about Jin, but it turns out he can’t even do that, lol.
Does the feeling of pleasure stress him out or something?
I think it’ll be a long time before Jin and Jian actually have sex because Jian needs to gradually get used to Jin. They really can’t rush this.
For now, I just want Jian to get better first, as well as take care of the things he wants to resolve so he can feel lighter. They can have sex afterward, just keep taking it slow.
Basically, the reason Jin doesn’t have sex with Jian isn’t because he isn’t ready, but because Jian isn’t.
Jian just wanted to sleep, not necessarily have sex… Makes me wonder what the hell happened to him to end up like this.
But just imagine how it feels to touch the G-spot of someone you’re obsessed with, only for them to end up gagging… Jin’s face was like, Yeah, I saw that coming, but still, seeing Jian react that way clearly pissed him off.
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I feel so bad, I truly hope they can work it out in the future. I have this awful feeling that Jian is inclined towards unaliving himself if he continues down this path… so I really really hope they find solace on each other and lift each other up
yes, it seems that for Jian, sex is self-destruction and disassociation from reality. for Jin, he wants Jian. so itʻs not the same.
Since the plot is getting more chaotic with many things happening, I made an analysis of the story so far.
First, Soeun (Jitae’s mother) managed an orphanage that took in Jin, Hajoon, and possibly Jung-ah? I’m not sure if Jung-ah is Soeun’s biological sister since she acts more like a servant. Either way, whether the orphanage turned corrupt after Soeun was kicked out or was always that way, it exploited the orphans, forcing them into labor and abuse. We’ve seen this with Jin in Chapter 48, and since Hajoon, still a minor like Jitae, was forced into poisoning people, he likely suffered similarly. Their backgrounds are the same, except Jin became obsessed with Jian while Hajoon developed a twisted fascination with Jitae, his childhood friend in pain.
Jung-ah, Soeun’s foster (?) sister, is obsessed with avenging Soeun’s death by using Jitae, though she seems to feel some guilt. But ultimately, everyone in this story using Mieum and his dad, who just got caught up in this family mess. Jitae, however, genuinely loves Mieum x999 and wants them to stay together and care for each other.
Things are working in Jitae’s favor, partly due to his plan with Jin but mostly due to luck. Jitae gained the upper hand by luring Jin, someone Suryeon trusts completely and who holds all of Suryeon’s dark secrets. If Jin exposes her, she’s finished. However, Jin isn’t fully on Jitae’s side, his real goal is for Jian to be so devastated by the truth that he stops caring about Jitae. Jitae was fine with this plan at first, but after meeting Mieum, he prioritized protecting their peaceful life and decided to resolve things quickly.
As for luck, if Jian hadn’t overheard things and then invited that rich idiot to do drugs, leading to his reckless driving accident (possibly influenced by Jin), Hajoon wouldn’t have been discarded by Suryeon. Even Jitae admitted he didn’t expect Hajoon to come to him for help. So, in short, the villains are both dumb and ridiculously unlucky, making them easy for Jitae to control. But since this story prioritizes the main couple’s love over everything, it’s fine, just hope the villains aren’t too stupid, because that gets a little frustrating to read.
As for Jian, it’s unclear how much he knows or how the author plans for him to intervene later. For now, Jin is keeping him in check. If Jian really wanted, he could sway Jin to his side, after all, Jin is obsessed with him. But it’s uncertain whether Jian has any plan or which side he’ll choose: his stepbrother (now with no blood relation) whom he cares for, or his insane mother, who, despite everything, is still his only family (Yang doesn’t count since he was never in Jian’s life).
I’m really curious how the author plans to resolve this mess…
God bless you
I guess the author is building Jin × Jian in a way where Jin is obsessed and crazy about Jian first, but Jian is actually the one who loves more? I’m guessing chapter 48 is the turning point where Jian starts to fall for Jin… while Jin’s heart is still pitch black lol.
From now on, I think Jian will focus more on Jin to turn that completely black heart red.
The author is still sick, so there won’t be a new chapter this week, but there’s some super cute Lunar New Year art of Jitae x Mieum and JinJian chibi. Make sure to check out the author’s X to see it!
This plot is wild lol. I don’t think Hajoon would bite the dust this early since Jitae still needs to use him for something, but maybe a third party interferes and kills Hajoon (Jin?), throwing off Jitae’s calculations. After all, this series is stretched over three seasons.
Jitae said he was already emotionally broken from a young age, even before meeting Mieum, that’s pretty interesting. Does the scene of him looking at the dead fish symbolize his indifference to death, and that only Mieum made him feel alive?
Anyway, Jitae has been a walking red flag to everyone except Mieum from the very beginning. I’m quite surprised by this direction because I thought he might have cared about his stepbrother, Jian (from the flashback in ch.48). But it turns out he truly doesn’t care about anyone at all? Is Jitae think of himself as villain like Jian is?