By the way, some people might think that Jian “loves” Jitae or is obsessed with him, but rest assured, the author has confirmed that there’s no such thing. Jian only feels that Jitae is very pitiable. I’m not sure if Jin misunderstood something or if he’s so jealous that he doesn’t want Jian to care about anyone else and said that, but Jian’s feelings for Jitae are purely sympathy. There’s no incest involved here!
It’s clear that Jin and Jian have known each other for a long time. Jin is obsessed with “bringing back” the Jian he used to know (perhaps the Jian from before his self-destructive and addiction).
To Jin, Jian’s deep concern for Jitae is the root cause of Jian’s suffering. This leads me to believe that Jin is aware of Jian’s true plans, plans that seem to involve some sort of sacrifice for Jitae, which Jin strongly disapproves of. Jin wants Jian to hate Jitae to the point where Jian no longer cares about him at all.
The truth about Jian having special feelings for Jitae is subtly implied many times. From the way Jian always wants Jitae to call him Hyung, to how Jian consistently intervenes in matters involving Jitae, it makes me wonder: why is Jian so invested in Jitae? It doesn’t make sense to say it’s out of pity, and Jian and Jitae don’t seem close enough for such devotion. This led me to a theory: Jian had a connection with Jitae’s mother in the past.
The significant age gap between Jian (33) and Jitae (26) might be intentional on the author’s part to hint at this. Perhaps Jin and Jian knew each other from an orphanage run by Jitae’s mother. Jian’s concern for Jitae could stem from how Jitae reminds him of his mother.
Imagine the weight of his existence, coupled with the knowledge that his mother was the one who killed Jitae’s mother. The sheer tragedy and despair of such a truth
it’s no wonder Jian would want to die.
Wow, great analysis!
Oooh so Interesting !!
Yeah Jian character is really complex if you really looking into it, that why i end up love him a lot
Saaaaaaame !! I am seriously reading this only bc of him ! I havent liked a character in a yaoi like this in a while. He is very interesting
Yes, honestly, I thought I could read this story without much thought, just waiting for the fucking scenes of JinJian. But Jian’s character is so captivating that I had to reread carefully to avoid missing any details about him.
Hah i know Jin x Jian gonna be a toxic somehow lol, just like how I like it but i don’t know Jin that crazy, i mean in the end, all Jin want is “save” Jian? It is negative way to do but Jian completely cut tied from Baek’s Family and his crazy mother is the only way give him peace mind. Beside….Jian seem to care for Jitae a lot, to the point Jin be a little jealous about it(???) he keep saying wanting Jian adore him and want Jian forget about Jitae (????) ugh i love them so much
So i got bored with this series lately for some reason….but new chapter is super cute is bring my love back, because Hayden finally take action thank god
Anyway it’s cute so i translate it
Brett: Last time, you kicked me out with just my underwear on.
Hayden: …I called you here because there’s something I need to talk about.
Brett: …Get in the car.
Brett: I’m listening, but I hope it doesn’t take too long.
Hayden: …Is that how you listen to others?
Brett: If not, just stand up and leave right now.
Hayden: …If you had stayed longer that day, I was afraid I would lose control. I’m sorry.
Anyway, there are things we need to discuss, not just about sex.
Brett: …Seems like you’re misunderstanding something, so let me make it clear.
I never had any intention of leaving you.
We’re about to graduate.
The one who regrets the most is me.
(Graduation in the US usually happens in May or June when the spring semester of the 4th year ends.)
In both life and career, I won’t let you suffer.
I don’t understand why you always decide on things and then tell me about them…
Hayden: …Still, nothing has changed.
You know what I want.
Brett: I remember when we went to watch a play.
Apart from you not wanting to see our relationship as a date, I didn’t know anything else.
Hayden: If this relationship is just about dating and eventually doing a threesome, I don’t need it.
You mean that could still happen, right?
Brett: I’ve never done that, and since you didn’t like it, I said I wouldn’t.
So, is exclusivity enough for you?
Hayden: Don’t pretend not to understand and play with words with me!
Brett: …Since this relationship started with me deceiving you, I’ll try not to lie anymore to maintain trust.
If what you want are romantic events or a formal relationship…
I can go along with that.
But you don’t want just those beautiful formalities, you want something deeper… like love, right?
But I can’t guarantee a feeling that has no shape, and I don’t want to either.
Even if I try to keep you by showing you that everything will be fine…
Eventually, you won’t feel enough and will get tired and leave.
It’s all too predictable.
I want to stay with you as long as possible.
That’s why I set a limit.
Hayden: Are you projecting experiences with others onto me?
You’ve never tried it with me.
Brett:…
Hayden: Can you explain better?
You find pleasure in imagining yourself falling from the position you’re in.
But you don’t actually want to fall.
That’s why you turn to me, someone from a different world, not anyone around you.
You want to use me as a tool, right?
That’s why you never had the intention to change.
I know that even if I listen to your half-hearted comforting words, the feeling will only improve temporarily. Nothing will change.
Don’t think you’re the only one who understands me.
I understand you too.
Think carefully. Without me, you’re alone too.
Brett: …After hearing you, I think…
Living like this, always being judged, maybe it’s better to be a little lonely, like you said.
Hayden: Wait..! I didn’t mean to judge you!
What I mean is…
Don’t push me out of your boundaries like this.
At least give me a chance.
I know chasing you is part of it!
I’ll try to change your mind…
Brett: Pfft! Who says “chasing” like that…
Isn’t that something only in books?
Hayden: Stop making fun of me…!
Brett: I was really annoyed earlier.
But since it’s so ridiculous, the anger disappeared.
Your “threatening” was awful…
Learn to negotiate better next time.
You’ll have to sign a lot of contracts later, right?
Hayden: Negotiate what…
You’re not an option for me.
You’re not something I can consider, like those cars you change every time, looking for the best one.
Now, other than you, I don’t need anyone else…
Brett: Are you secretly blaming me now?
Hayden: No… sorry.
Brett: …So, what do you plan to do?
Hayden: What?
Brett: You said you were going to “chase” me.
How are you going to make me happy?
Going to drag me to another boring play?
Hayden: No…
Brett: It’s the end of the year. Do you have free time?
How about this weekend?
Hayden: I have a supporting role scene and… an interview for my graduation thesis.
Brett: So that’s a no, right?
Then there’s Christmas.
What will you be doing?
Hayden: Normally, I would go to my relatives’ house in Germany with my family…
But this year, due to my schedule, those plans were canceled.
Instead, I’ll be at my parents’ house in San Diego for a few days.
Brett: Hmm…
Hayden: …Do you want to come with me?
Brett: What?
Hayden: I’ll bring you back before Christmas Eve.
Brett: That’s… a bit too fast, don’t you think?
Hayden: It’s still two weeks away.
Didn’t you already have your schedule full?
Brett: No…
I didn’t mean it like that…
I really liked this chapter lol
Hayden has really grown up, finally taking the initiative, now i wait for Brett turn haha
A few chapters ago, I was feeling a bit boring because there was no progress, but this chapter made me go aww, even though they’re still both kind of dumb, at least they finally cleared up the misunderstandings from Season 1.
Aaaahhhhh!! Thank you so much for translating! I miss them so much ╥﹏╥
I prefer the chapters where they talk to each other, even argue frankly like that, rather than a cold war. And Hayden in this chapter is really adorable, I need to spread this cuteness.
When Brett said "I want to stay with you for as long as possible. That's why I set a limit" What does he mean by that?
From what Brett is saying it feels like he already has feelings for Hayden but he either doesnt want to acknowledge it as love or doesnt know if it is.
From what I understand, Brett mean: “ I really enjoy being around you, so I will try to do everything I can to make you happy, but I can’t give you what you want, which is love, because I’m not even sure if it’s possible.”
Brett is the type of person who is practical to the point of being mechanical, as seen in chapter 33. Brett has always had difficulty empathizing with others, so it’s understandable that he’s unsure about romantic feelings. He only knows that he enjoys being around Hayden, while Hayden clearly wants more from Brett, but Brett can’t pay a price he’s not sure he can afford
Brett seems to enjoy the dynamic of this “chasing” situation, even if he hasn’t fully acknowledged his own feelings yet. However, it’s clear that Brett recognizes Hayden isn’t someone easily replaced. Their connection goes beyond just physical chemistry, there’s a chemistry between them outside the bedroom too. Brett’s frequent visits to Hayden’s place and his desire to spend time with him, getting to know him better, show how much he actually enjoys spending time with Hayden. Hayden offers Brett something rare- a person he can truly be himself around. For someone like Brett, who may often feel the need to put up a front, that sense of freedom must feel refreshing. He’s even admitted on more than one occasion that he enjoys Hayden’s company more than anyone else’s these days. It’s obvious Brett wants to keep Hayden in his life for as long as he can. And right now, with Hayden’s full attention focused on him, it’s the perfect opportunity.
What I love about Brett is his honesty. He could easily fake feelings or pretend to fall for Hayden, but instead, he’s upfront about his uncertainty, he doesn’t know if he’s capable of developing those kinds of emotions because he’s never experienced them before.I can’t wait to see how Hayden tries to win Brett over!
Oh my god thank you so much for translating this I was having a hard time and struggling to read this moment. I love the honesty from brett he’s clarifying and even have to tease Hayden in the end as well as Hayden himself is still taking the initiative! I am mostly just worried what will happen in the future
I like this chapter because life has finally returned to Raymon’s eyes. It seems like Raymon had a very wild past and was saved by Dominic, who seems to be like an older brother to him. Dominic also doesn’t seem to be a simple person, and it looks like Winter is about to face a challenge, haha.
Even though Winter seems to respond well to Raymon’s gentleness, I think Raymon is mistaken. I have a feeling that Winter isn’t one of the people Raymon have sex with… I’m really looking forward to the next chapter!
Well new chapter just sex, i have no comment lol
but Raymon’s determination to escape has returned, let’s wait and see what he’ll do!
I can’t hold it in any longer, I have to pour out my obsessed love for Jin x Jian. How is it possible for a couple to make my heart pound so fiercely just by locking eyes? If they actually fucking, I gonna go crazy.
Jian is a character I really love. He constantly leaves me on edge, making me worry about him, frustrate over him, yet I’m hopelessly drawn to him, craving to know every layer he hides behind that carefree face. How can someone be both mischievous and vulnerable, making me want (Jin) to bully and protect him at the same time?
And then there’s Jin. Though he doesn’t appear as often, every interaction he has with Jian makes the air between them tense yet gentle. We don’t know too much about Jin yet, but his hidden plans and the subtle care he shows for Jian make my heart flutter so much. Just the few moments they’ve had together have already made me obsessed. Can’t they please have their own series?
（￣へ￣）THEY NEED THEIR OWN STORY ASAP
According to the author, Jin and Jian are considered the main characters of the story, so their storyline will be explored more extensively in the main plot (the author mentioned that Jian is a main character appearing from chapter 1).
However, the main focus couple remains Jitea and Mieum only. Jin and Jian cannot even be considered a side couple because, while their relationship is tied to the plot, the author does not focus on their romantic connection.
Let’s hope they at least get a romantic side story.
I’ve developed two personas over this: One part of me wishes they’d just fuck already because I’ve been waiting so long and it’ll still be ages before we get more moments between them.
But the other part wants Jian to “crave” Jin even more, lol. Like, if they got together now, fans would be happy, but it would lose the depth of their relationship. Jin wants Jian to heal first and only wants it to happen when Jian is fully clear-minded and focused only on him. Slowburn is torturous, but it’s usually so satisfying.
Well-executed pining for Serious x Slutty is so rare, most couple i know with this trope alway fuck eachother so fast before i feel the heat, and I really have high hopes for this couple.
I don’t want them stealing screen time from the main couple, but ugh, I wish they had their own series!
Yeah I want them to be like serious about this you know. Not just a sex scene. that won't be enough. I want Juian to literally stop doing drugs and all that shit JUST to be with hot bodyguardboy
Yeah, I want to see Jian crave Jin to the point where he can’t be intimate with anyone else, even if he in drug craving state. It will take a long time for that to change ,especially considering the drama between them still isn’t resolved. Ugh, I really wish they had their own series because the issues between Jin and Jian will be hard to resolve if they’re just a side couple with limited screen time. More pinning eachother please
you're right
SO SO SO right
couldn't agree more （/TДT)/
Yesss, it really looks like Jin wants Jian to get better (just thinking about that part when he was worried about Jian's drug addiction, that he might die soon), but at the same time I think he is using Jian as part of the plot with Jitae. So I want Jin to fall mooore into Jian
I think that even if Jin is taking advantage of Jian, his ultimate goal is still to free him (my guess). However, if his plan gets exposed in the future, Jian might feel hurt by the betrayal. Honestly, I don’t think Jian fully trusts Jin either.
Jin still hasn’t revealed his true intentions, but it’s clear he feels both frustrated and very protective of Jian (love-hate kind of thing). Jian acts a bit dependent on Jin, yet his words and actions seem like he’s trying to push him away. Ugh, these two are driving me insane!
waittt
i think I missed a part of the story cause I don't get what Jin's other motive is. I kinda forgot about it. Can you maybe shortly explain it to me agian???
He is working for Jitae
I like this chapter, it’s cute. And i love seeing Brett get kick-out like that the disrespect lol
After Brett forced himself on Hayden, Hayden kicked him out, not giving him any time to even put his pants back on—serves him right, lol.
Then, flashes of memories from that last Rut night started coming back:
Anyway the cute part i like :
Brett: “This is the first time I’ve actually seen what knotting looks like up close, though last time you did it inside me, it hurt a lot.
Knotting outside like this—what’s the point?
Oh, I guess it’s the same even if you knot inside.”
“[Honey], is this what’s turning you back into human?”
It’s funny… if I can control you like that, it doesn’t feel exciting anymore.
But if I actually got hurt, you’d run away, wouldn’t you? Like a wounded animal hiding in a dark cave…
Alright, let’s go with that… You can use me however you want, too. That way, it’s fair, isn’t it?
If this is how you protect yourself, then while we’re still together, I’ll remember this for your sake.
[Honey…]”
And then, in that moment, Hayden marked Brett.
It’s bittersweet chapter, now Hayden remember that rut night he forgot, what will he do?
And seem like Brett getting in new trouble with Nathan’s dad…
I m not sure Brett took Nathan phone right? He kept to himself i wonder if he can handle both situation at once also , their sofa scenes is one of most beautiful and lovy dovy scene of this manhwa
Yeah Brett did something dangerous, he getting himself a lot trouble…
Ugh the sofa scene so cute i hate them so much, isn’t their already date?
Brett sure want thrill but shit gonna get too serious, I jus want them to leave hickey on each other and cuddle together rather than playing push and pull
Ray begins his plan to “manipulate” Winter by pretending to cooperate while simultaneously demanding more from him. He even tries to entice Winter into sleeping together and going on dates. However, Winter is not someone who is easy to deal with. Eventually losing his patience, Ray decides to attack Winter’s “loyalty” head-on, asking if he’s starting to feel bored of him. It’s intriguing to imagine how Winter would respond.
I think this is the first BL captivity story that delves into the monotony and suffocation of such a relationship—where all they do is eat, sleep, and have sex. It’s incredibly dull, and it’s clear the captor has forgotten why they liked their victim in the first place, focusing only on possessing them. One has to wonder if that’s really love. Definitely not, lol.