There’s something deeply sad about their relationship. The way they co-exist is so intimate in a melancholic way. It’s really indescribable, because they’re not yearning or desiring each other, but rather it’s like they’re seeking safety and security. That chapter where they just space out into each other and never address it, because they don’t have to. There’s no sexual or romantic desire. It feels more like an affirmation, an acceptance of taking on each other’s burden which is so selfless of them bc they’re already going through their own shit.
Personally, my theory is that they separate unwillingly due to Ilwoo. He’s going to do something out of impulse and carelessness that’s going to result in him running away again.
The way Baekhee narrates this story feels like it’s centered around Ilwoo, even the title is just his name. It’s not that Baekhee sees that Ilwoo is worth more telling about than himself, no, because he’s reminiscing about him in his life. Because Ilwoo was the good part of his life worth telling even if they spent their time with each other painfully. Why he’s telling the story this way, idk
What’s holding back Ian is himself and he needs to get it together and leave, Jo or not doesn’t matter he needs to wrap it tf up or else he’ll always hurt the ppl around him
i can’t believe i spent weeks reading for a gut fucking open ended finale
the positions are so peak
Imagine the neck pain after that first one
real shi
that shit was so hot dawg
sorry if I sound like a broken record but where’s K, i need him to get done next
Don't worry sweet pea we're all thinking that
Ok um i’m so confused, he wants to get called mom? not wife? I mean he likes the dad, not the kid, so why would he get turned on by the idea of beings someone’s mom? It doesnt make any sense
the past tense is killing me, also why does he use his full name when recollecting these things, it gives me more anxiety
Because in asian culture referring to someone with their full name is more polite. Referring to someone with their first name sounds intimate, its something you would only do if you’re on close terms with them - unlike in english. This could actually mean that in the future theres some distance between them, but lets hope thats not the case LOL
***calling first name is okay if you’re older than them/higher than them in rank or same age/rank in society, but generally its still considered more intimate its a confucian thing I’m pretty sure
That’s not quite what I was referring to, I was trying to say that it feels like he’s reciting his name like it’s something he doesn’t want to forget. It’s like Illwoo is the center of this story, and he revolves around him. Even in the title, it’s his full name, and then just “I.” Yeah he could be formal because there’s distance between them (in the present), but it also feels like loss, when you lose someone abruptly and all you have left is their name.
thats a really good point. i just hope its not the case that ilwoo passed away and baekhee is reciting his full name like its a part of his obituary
girllll i’m back to tell you that’s exactly what its feeling like, i’ve been avoiding trying to make theories like that cause i want them to get together but yeah the more I reread the more suspicious i’m starting to get about ilwoos status
i’m deadddddd asl why are the proportions so off