PoodlyDoodly's Things

I'm not even joking, this is especially evident in Genshin, HSR, etc., my friend who draws GORGEOUS fanart of her fav ships finally had the courage to open her own public art account a few weeks ago and she already got tons of hate for shipping Neuvilette x Navia and Wriothesley x Chlorinde from Wriolette shippers. She even got sent death threats for it, and mind you my friend is a pretty meek person so she took a huge hit from it and hasn't been able to draw for a while now. Honestly let's be real in shipping repression is reversed. I get it, people want to see men kissing all the time me too, but it's so infuriating when I see the double standards. Ive seen so many people condone shipping male characters with set female partners to their bestfriends it other friends but when it's two male characters not canonically tied to one another but are close and one of them gets shipped to a woman everyone's going feral saying it's homophobia. I'm not hating, but please understand my position as someone who just witnesses my close friend harassed over a straight ship for no reason. A Wriolette shipper even called her a pedophile??? I don't get that one because if it's NeuviNavia they're talking about because Neuvilette is an old dragon then isn't Wriolette too?? I'm so confused.

We had this topic in class today and it made me think a bit. How come people are able to be enthusiastic about the horrors committed to others? (True crime enthusiasts) How come million of people can watch people from war torn countries beg for their help and do nothing but say they feel for them? How does our indifference harm us as a society?

This is for the people who are still unsure, in denial, or are having a hard time coming to terms with their sexuality.

Have you ever felt that it would've been so much easier if the world isn't what it is? I know it's generally more accepted and supported now, but there's still a 'they're different from us with normal sexualities' connotation to it. I know this is such an awkward comparison but whenever I read fantasy stories in societies where it doesn't fucking matter who you love because it's all the same (apocalypse, omegaverse, wuxia, etc.), I just think, it would be so much easier if things were like that. If men and women could have biological kids all the same even if they're the same gender, if the gender of the person you loved doesn't really matter because love is love and we all die the same anyways, if nobody thinks about each other's gender when it comes to love.

I'm not homophobic, nor am I naive, I know it's possible to get surrogates, love whoever bc you gotta stand up for ursel yada yada etc, but I'm not looking for logic. I'm looking for people who are also struggling with the same feeling. I admire people who proudly act upon their feelings/sexualities, because I still struggle with the fact that people don't view it as 'natural' that the world didn't accept such things in the first place, that if I choose that path I'll face becoming an 'anomaly', that I won't be able to get the same biological joys as those people, that I won't be 'normal'.

I wish gender didn't matter, I wish things were equal, I wish we didn't have to lose anything just because we chose to love who we wanted to love.

Maybe then I'd still be able to accept myself, maybe then I'd be able to come to terms with it. I know that I probably am, but I don't want to be.