
What type relationships the author themselves are into because???? This goes past masochism, this is just verbal, physical, and sexual abuse. I get the whole “what people write doesn’t mean that they endorse it” but like…what’s the point of having this person be so shitty other than frustrating the readers to the point where they no longer even like him after a so-called redemption era, whenever that may be (maybe the real S & M relationship is between the author and us readers since they keep doing this….)
I don’t know if it’s worse or better that at this point it feels as thought the abusive nature isn’t being sexualized like in other manga (never thought I would say that in my life bc I don’t like the rape trope. I think it’s stupid and unnecessary). Actually, it shows up in sex scenes, but feels incredibly unsexy. In fact, I’m going to be bold and say none of the sex scenes feel sexy because I’m too busy boiling with rage at Asshole #1 In The World(TM) to even appreciate the artwork sometimes. In some way, him being some random “normal” person with that abusive personality instead of a hit man or a serial killer is somehow worse if that even makes any sense at all

And we’ve all grieved his loss of never being the main lead, I’m already liking the childhood friend more than the main lead idk why but I can’t seem to build any interest for the ML in the story/dreams

I know lol, it’s like going to wattpad and reading those cringey stories from the 14 year olds that don’t know how to properly write yet (the dream tropes, not this actual story and how it is written). Always the same type of male lead and plot line glad to see that in my older age I’ve lonnggg since grown out of that misguided fantasy
If the boyfriend is cheating on her, or if he’s bad at sex and that’s the issue (?) or maybe she’s just not getting as much emotional/romantic support as she would like from him? It feels so vague/ambiguous I can’t tell what her problem is lol