
At this point and were we stand... I don't care if it's fake or another plot to make our mc fall even more into madness and finally kill himself: give him some love ffs??? Get him into a doctor, treat him, get him into feeling even a bit of serotonin. I really am sorry but I don't care even if it was the abuser that was just tricking him into an even lower form, just let him feel cared for even if it's messed up ;^; pls... Cause he already broken in the worst way... He conscious and hurting, lemme get sum delulu and see him happy even if only at his own mind... Even if still toxic ;^; I can't take it....
Honestly, I just wanna grab him, take him somewhere where there's no abuser and people related to that.... Give him time, space and let him choose, grow and heal... I wish I could erase, but this is the story author created... So I just wanna make it so that although all of that happened and he trully is broken beyond I wish that even if he choose suicĂde or just died or idk what, that his last moments would be peaceful... Or at least free of his tormentor... I wish I would aplly skin mending/soothing/healing pomadea/oils, anything really, give him a shower and nutricious omurice ;^; he don't need to force himself to like it/smile or taste... I'd just try my hardest to make he feel at peace... To heal even if just to take his own life.... But at his own terms at least ;^; and if he chose to stay I'd be right besides him for as long as he allowed me to I love this man unconditional and wish I could do at least one thing to ease his agony....

Aaaaa I am pissed and mopey now... It's ok... Author is good and actually writes well... Didi is cool as well i guess.... But why lead on the prince then ;^;???? Wth???? Why is it so convoluted and messy only to do thw biggest u turn ever and end up with didi?????? Like ye, clearly she likes didi, but clearly she also has "romantic feelings" and wayyyyyyy more chemistry moments with leo ;^; and it's hard to like 2 people at the same time, sge chose her 1st love :/ ye.... Ok. Just felt, kinda lacking? Idk... Didi rlly feels more like he loved her as her "true self older woman" but she feel in love with him as her "child appearance" and really didn't have that kick into it... It is "sweet" when she is just a woman and her and didi have that slow burn almost perfect romance when they at his hometown... But like I've been saying: it feels like cheating and specially to leo... Yes yes he is emotionally unstable, but is it not even scummier to lie and "give him what he wants/needs" only to take it away and then give all that love and affection to another? I feel slightly betrayed... I feel uncomfortable and a little bit sick on how this is all being played out... The misleading, the blind sighting, the manipulation and honestly the wishy washy attitude to both of them.... Philia shouldn't end with anyone then imo. Ye, sad, but I feel like if she has to choose one after all of this, it should be no one :) idk, selfish side of me says i don't agree with the toxicity of either relationship... It's VERY messy when you add that she can hear their thoughts... She was for 1/2 the story basically an infant.^. She used them both to achieve stuff that felt self righteous :) and she is quiet honestly a coward for not straightening up her affairs from the beginning

Like???? No actual resolution just *SLAPS THAT FLEX TAPE ON* onto their barely standing broken of an absolute mess of relationship!!! LIKE LITERALLY SO ANTICLIMATIC!!! I was flabbergasted that even on the side pieces they never trully dig out and shapped their relationship properly!!! And they've been tiptoeing around ir the whole ass stuff just not to talk about it???? MC IS DUUUUUMB! his exes apparently were all scattered off by ML????? And imo it seems the author intended to make it more of a thriller/full onnn angsty psycho
/yandere manipulation stockholm relationship but gave up!!! And then tried to threw in some non sense fluff???? WTH??? ML is a creep and a weirdo! MC is dumb as a door although his character presentation seemed to present him as toight and barely competent IT WAS ALL FOR NAUGHT!!! Literally so dumb >:( badly executed romance with many plot gaps and flex tape relationship mending for a mess the authos pussisd out to create >:(((( feck this!!!! ML can have a mind break or even straight up say:" yep, I like my man like scrambled eggs, all messed up!" BUT NOOOOO just ignore all the CLEAR vibrant red flags and make it all boil down to:" oh, we both always loved each other and will never acknowledge or work on the problems we've had since MUCHHHHHH LONG TIME AGO and just literally love as a happy couple but without any sense for that to be happening" LAZY! Work them dialogs! Make them cry and grieve that both of them suck!!! MC is a pussy push over that is flappy and a sucker for sex but also was deeply hurt cause ML was very homophobic! (No it's not all se on woo's fault for telling twisted lies) bitch actually was a fucker and didn't talk nor faced MC JUST CAUSE???? LIKE WOW! HE GAY! But not with me!!! Sheesh!! I CAN NEVER CONFESS I LOVE HIM! But i will literally stalk and plot against his every relationship that is not with me in hopes we end up together! Easy! NO FUCKING HELL!!!! AND MC IS:" oh wow, my ex bff who gave me a very traumatic memory still lingers around me and torments me! Manipulates me and has dubious consensual sex when I am drunk! He misy hate me?( Tbh, fair, would make more sense if his feelings were more twisted like if I can't have him no one cans muahahah/ even though I love him I can't help but hurt him into loving me as well!) way better character reasons to do all the baclflips anx bs we had to go through for them to get together! And bro!!!! AKAAKKAKA BAD FRIEND GUY ALWAYS FEELING INFERIOR TO SEONWOO and tries to rape MC WOW!!!! But he too dumb to pull it through and ends up half revealing both seonwoo and ML are bastards( but the author regreted making ML twisted so they wrote bs in the past to justify kinda of what and why he did most of his shit! Still doesn't explain the other relationships he neddled with and without even being openly present on MC's Life!!!! Like he faked being religious???? He purposefully THREW COFFE! And bought funny underwear just to cock block MC?????????????????
A mess, a hot but very bad flopped mess. :(. Not even funny, just veey unfulfilling.... Feck
I like second couple. I love them ^^
I barely read it properly, it just hurts. I have adhd and grew up undiagnosed... It hurts, it hurt so much when I was a teen and also felt helpless, I hurt myself and I also felt like everything was meaningless and so so so bleak... I remember days were I'd just be catatonic or numb, others when I'd cry my eyes out for no apparent reason... This reminds me of it all... I hate the adults who are so irresponsible and cold, they are disgusting. I understand them, but I feel they are loathsome as well, so powerless facing the woes of a child... They drink and blind themselves as they can't do shirt about it, they undecisively try to meddle in it, pushing and pushing the people around them for selfish reasons when they don't trully understand how or want to actually help. I hate this. It is too real. It is still too fresh of a wound... It festers and I feel like a dilascerated infected ail has been brought back...