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I could be overthinking but it bothers me when Suzuki says: “This is the most focused I’ve ever been” in chapter 38, page 27. Why? Because what do you mean you have never been focused as much with Sugiki? That’s what it sounds like, and it’s just disappointing combined with his causal action of fucking a man. I think I’m just being emotional, but I am really disappointed.
And he admits to using Norman for distraction only, a physical warmth—his own words, chapter 38, page 34. Another thing I am curious about:
When Suzuki says: “Sugiki completely changed my identity these last few months, I never imagined I’d get all passionate and horny over another guy. Every time we held hands, we could both sense our love for each other.”
I truly hope when he says feeling horny and passionate for ‘another guy’, he is referring to Sugiki. Not Norman!
Rather than the sex itself overall—the whole build up leading to this is what caught me off guard and the casual attitude of Sugiki whereas Suzuki is probably thinking about him in ways he didn’t. Sugiki was easily able to fuck someone else, which makes sense as he is a top—a straight man before meeting Suzuki.
“A hole is a hole” phrase in this scenario, he did it with Norman easily because of that. Norman was willing to bottom whereas Sugiki didn’t want to. I understand this, yet I feel bitter and wish this didn’t happen. It feels unnecessary and poor drama plot.
I hope he is the top so Suzuki can make up by bottoming for the what-just-happened-bull-shit he pulled in chapter 37–38 with Norman. And I won’t mind switching too. I got way too invested in the sexual tension and emotional build up, so I apologize if I sound too harsh on Suzuki.
Or a cheap trope of a love rival to make Suzuki jealous. I’m usually not into the whole jealousy trope, but I feel like that’s what it’ll take for Suzuki to realise his stupidity in letting go. They weren’t dating I know, but they knew each other’s feelings, so it feels bitter and icky.
And I wonder if Sugiki found out that Suzuki slept with Norman, when Norman is leaving in chapter 39 I believe before the performance. He looked distraught and I feel so sorry for Sugiki, imagine finding out your ex could easily sleep with a man after all that. Hopefully things clear up between them, I still like the main.
Though, for the nth time, what a disappointing turn of events.
I think it's because sugiki had some internalized homophobia too. It's not only that he refused to bottom but he just didn't want to lose control. He also didn't want to truly fall in love because of his issues too
Oh, that makes sense. Does Suzuki know that he explicitly has internalised homophobia or just that he feels Sugiki cannot see past his dancer idealistic view?
Both were at fault of course. I just thought the whole thing with Norman was not necessary, I didn’t really feel the longing or tension besides Suzuki suddenly getting those electric feeling that Sugiki is somewhere near.
Yes I agree it was not necessary and I hate Norman because he is just weird asf like ew. But I think they trying to make Norman and sponsor dude a second couple
Anyways I think he knows because even before the whole sex position talk came up with Suzuki, sugiki had a conversation with his gay friend and when the gay friend said that you might need to be submissive he didn't like it. And the gay friend called out his internalized problem.
Suzuki also had it but as we see in recent chapters that has disappeared
I will do some tarot reading, if anyone is interested.
You need to ask a question, about life, love, growth, etc. Then I will shuffle my tarot cards, and take 3 out (depending on question) once I read your question, and send those info. This is serious.
Also any recommendations on danmei or manga/manhwa/manhua where tarot reading is something the mc does? Thank you.
im interested... about love. kinda desperate tbh
i dont have any recos tho... apologies
I want to know if I can meet my future husband or not , I don’t like to go outside and my hobby is reading Yaoi . I guess I don’t need to ask T_T
I want to know about love tho hahaha and for another question, im sorry i dont have any recommend danmei and if there is story that relate with tarot, im really glad if u could share it with me hahaha
Will I be at peace with myself in the future?
Yes pls!!! I would like to ask a question about love and life and my question is, does the future for this girl and I look happy or bleak? Is it healthy to continue staying by her? What kind of future does my relationship look like with her, and whether she’ll be happy. Thanks!!
Before I read, I usually ask for clarification with 2–3 questions to get the best reading to avoid vague and inaccurate reading. No worries about the recommendations! :)
1. What are you truly looking for in a relationship or the kind of love?
2. How are you feeling about your love life right now? If you have one.
3. Is this just a general question or you have something specific in mind? Like maybe someone is in your mind, or not.
I won’t ask any more questions after these three, it goes against my order.
1. Do you have anyone in mind or just a general question?
2. How do you feel about your love life, if you have any, right now? (Just to get a better read of emotional energy)
I always wanted to try this out...
I'm interested to know what would my future me hold on a few years after I graduate college. I've been told to take courses to attempt competitive exams but I'm not interested in it. I've been wanting to become a fashion designer since I was in 4th grade but I feel like it will never happen due to the amount of discouragement my mom gives me about wanting to pursue what I want to do.
Few recs hmm....
Here you are.
Men's wear store and her royal highness.
Define the relationship. (Alphaxalpha)
Do you still like me?(Alphaxalpha but peak must read)
Our sunny days.
The world would be better with more love!
Don’t worry about the recommendations! :)
1. What type of love are you drawn towards?
2. How do you express your love and attraction to someone?
I assume you two are dating right now?
1. What are your thoughts about her? Or how do you feel about her? Your words matter too.
2. How do you and her interact?
1. Just somone willing to stand beside me, talk, guide
2. I dont have anyone but i love myself more than anyone else hahaha
3. General one. Its interesting to know
Actually I really don’t have interest in anyone and I have three ex and the last two cheat on me so after that I just feel that love is not for me and still single for two years . I am afraid of to live alone being single for my whole life but also I am afraid what if I got cheated on again ( I have very weak health so one breakup like is trying to go through nearly end of my life ) . So now I don’t dare to contact with man . Do u think in the future I can meet someone I truly can trust? T_T Thank you so much for your reading
Can you please do tarot reading for me and I have whole bunch of collection of amazing manhwa and manga.
And j am really sad right now so will you please do it
1. What kind of life are you looking forward to? Imagine I’m not here and you’re writing out what your life will be like.
2. How important are your family to you? Or specifically how important is your mother’s validation?
And thank you for the recommendations! :)
Why unexpected things happens with me only??
Answer me please how's my luck
1. What is your treasure in your life?
2. How do you see yourself as?
For recommendation
Disabled tryrant's beloved pet fish
Little mushroom ( I know manhwa is also here but novel is really good)
1.
-Im just looking for something that wont hold me back but like a relationship where i can share my life with... something that is comfortable and doesnt ask for much... yk like i j want aa soft love
2.
-I have a crush on someone rn, its rlly complicated... not to mention at my age lmfao its crazy but I really like this person and i just want to know if we/I have a chance on this...
3.
-I have someone in mind actually... I have a crush on someone rn, its crazy ngl theyve been on my mind... and uhh rn i think its pretty one sided, so i j wanna know if this is going somewhere. Mind u that we never actually like properly talk
Hii I'll send this to you in your dms if it's possible?
I see (more like ‘feel’) a quiet night sky, each of the star twinkling, they are pieces of hope. This is yours. Your light is steady and bright, born from the love you have for yourself yet it’s not ready to be a shooting star. ‘The Star’ tells me that your energy naturally draws people who are looking for honesty, warmth, and authenticity. Even if your heart feels patient or solitary right now as you mentioned loving yourself more than anyone, still that radiates a pull that invites connection and open windows. You are seen, although you might feel unseen by some people.
I have received ‘Two of Cups’ which shows the potential for connection and love, but it also reminds that relationships require balance. You need balance. There will be moments where you and someone else need to work through differences or learn to communicate clearly. The connection is never impossible, but it won’t always be effortless.
Comes ‘Five of Pentacles’…while this card suggests that there may be feelings of isolation/disappointment along the way, like ‘Two of Cups’, it isn’t a 100% likely if you prevent it earlier on. Perhaps past experiences or your own expectations could make you feel lonely, even when someone is present. It’s a warning to be mindful of your emotional needs so you do not lash out at other, and don’t ignore signs of imbalance or neglect.
Briefly, I believe the love you are curious of mirrors the care, understanding, and support that you already give yourself. While that isn’t hard to find, love needs balance which you may be missing.
1. What is your treasure in your life?
Family & privacy (?)
2. How do you see yourself as?
Helpless lazy bum
1. When you ask about WHY unexpected things happen, and you feel like it’s you only, I believe this goes in the life energy reading. What do you hate the most in this world or your life?
2. Why do you say you are sad?
3. Are you looking to understand why this is happening or how to handle them? Or both?
And thank you for the recommendations!
I read these all! But you mentioning them is greater. Love to see people with taste.
Oh, the ‘Seven of Swords’ [reversed] is showing that some of the hidden complications or uncertainties in your crush situation could start coming to light soon. Since you haven’t really talked yet, this card suggests that either you or your crush may begin to communicate more clearly, or the intentions and feelings that were unclear might become easier to understand. And it also warns to be careful about assumptions or overthinking, reversed, it’s less about deceit and more about needing honesty and clarity before you invest too much emotionally. The energy is encouraging you to approach this situation openly, so you can see the reality of where things stand rather than letting uncertainty rule your heart.
‘Page of Cups’ next. This one reflects curiosity, ‘youthful’ emotions that may have not been born or lived long in the blooming time so it appeared a bit late, but it is here. Your current energy is freely open and vulnerable with your love. You are willing to feel and explore emotions, to remain and retry even if it might become messy or confusing. The Page reminds you that soft, tender love is possible, but it ‘may’ start slowly and tentatively.
Knight of Pentacles..this card reflects a born patient, but with thoughtful approach to love. If a connection develops, it will grow in a practical and grounded way, showing reliability and consistency rather than excitement-drama. It points to someone or the relationship itself that truly values steady effort, it may or may not be your crush that holds the same attentiveness, and thoughtfulness as yours.
Of course. I will probably respond a bit later, but guarantee a response.
No we’re not dating. We are very close and intimate (cuddly, hand holding, bites, kind of like a couple but not since it’s not official.) Shes confessed she likes me and I like her too, I just don’t know if a relationship with her is viable since she’s suicidal/depressed. But I really do like her. I want to know if in the future she’ll be happy and if she and I will still be talking, like if there’s even a future of us together even just staying as friends.
Oh no.
With ‘Nine of Pentacles’, you do have an inner desire for independence, security, and stability in life and with yourself no matter the critics. You value your personal space and the sense of comfort that comes from truly getting to have boundaries respected. This shows that peace is possible if you nurture what ‘truly’ matters most to you.
Comes ‘Five of Cups’, a card reflecting self-criticism, regret, or dwelling on perceived failures and past struggles. Your current self-view (“helpless lazy bum”) may be limiting your sense of inner peace. The Five of Cups warns that focusing too much on what you think you lack can block fulfillment, even if the foundations for contentment are already there.
‘The Hermit’ is running to you, telling you that the path to inner peace involves introspection, self-reflection, and understanding your own values. You should take time alone to process your feelings, evaluate your priorities, ask yourself not others, and connect with your sense of self beyond criticism. Peace comes from learning to rely on your own insight and judgment, not always external validation.
You can definitely find peace with yourself. Right now it seems like you’re just trying to find peace with others, but you’re neglecting and degrading yourself with self criticisms. You need your own love first. You want to find peace with yourSELF in order to achieve internal peace.
I slowly settled my cards down, this one requires a bit of reading. Thankfully I had not asked you a third question earlier, so I could ask one more now. It goes against my tarot order to ask more than three. I’m glad I was careful to ask only two.
3rd) How is your dynamic with her?
Appreciate it, babe. Thanks for ur insight :3
Will be eagerly waiting for it!
We are both very affectionate with each other. I’d say somewhat dependent or at least, if we don’t see each other for a few days we have ‘[insert name] withdrawals’. I say we both like each other an equal amount of a big quantity. I’m not sure if it could be considered healthy but we both do try to work through our personal problems in order to be healthy together
Who wants a malewife? Comment your malewife wish and any other person wish here, I’ll say if it will come true.
Thought I was the one wrote this comment lol
will i ever get a tall, muscular, nice and caring male who will let me suck on his tiddies and call him mommy?
What the hell, my twin?
Your profile…what a whore. You will definitely get that big tiddies muscled mommy, but he might leave you if you don’t leash him or keep him by side for at least 10 hours a day. You have to train his body and mind, and he won’t ever leave you.
UES YES YES
I don’t like where this is going. I hope the new guy in chapter 44 isn’t some old ex coworker or classmate of Kyo and likes him or something.
But it doesn’t seem like either recognized each other.