
uhm so does Loid starting to have romantic feelings for Yor? with all those blushing and he's about to say real wife??
I'm kinda slow in regards with romance unless it's said straightforwardly ( ̄∇ ̄")

No he doesn’t have feeling for Yor right now. He thought Yor might’ve fallen for her so he was taking advantage of that situation, to make sure Yor doesn’t leave the ‘family’. But when Yor kicked the life out of him, it made him realise that Yor doesn’t have feeling for him. And he said all the things he wanted to said straight forwardly.

No, I don’t think so - because his in twilight mode when his about to ask her to be his real wife, thinking Yor has romantic feelings for him and he can use it to his advantage.
However a few panels down his talking about his mother revealing a bit of his background story through Yor. “Which I think is a sign that he is falling in love with her and moving forward the only time we might get anything from Loid background will be through Yor”
So in my mind his comfortable around her and might be falling in love with her without realising it.

"it's as if I'm back at that moment..
why is this happening again?" - so he loved someone before?and that flasback panel with a father protecting/stopping hand gesture to a boy. is that SH and his father or from SH's perspective??
"should I just rid of it all? kill them and myself?" - i so wanna know his backstory for him to lead to this thought so much he wanna kill everyone including himself.
i read theories that his father made him slept with old nobles but i don't think that it is bc the father was in rage with a letter indicating SH's debauchery. but SH once said he is just doing what his father told him to, in sarcastic tone(is confusing me. what does it imply to? telling him to do whatever he wants bc they left him or continue this debauchery with the nobles. for what? connections? power? which i said don't think it is)
anyways SH looks good with his eyes closed like that

I too thought of theory of a "past lover" but I think the story is too deep and dark and complicated to be about a past lover, and I think the theory about sg father forcing him to sleep with old nobels fit perfectly with the story bc as far as I know there's seems to be a massacre in the yoon family that was ordered by the emperor but sg family (father and brother) survived maybe cause his father used him to protect the family or some shit , as for his father getting angry bc of the painting that sg sent him(him sleeping with men) maybe he just wanted to get back at his father (did it for revenge) to try and trash his father image.

oh yeah it was a painting not letter. me and my poor memory ( ̄∇ ̄")
and yes the theory of him being forced to old nobles fits the story. i actually even thought of that but im just hoping it isn't.
maybe both past love he had and stuff with old nobles did happened to him. his father used him to pleased the oldies since he knows his son's sexuality(rather he still used him regardless of SHs sexuality) but but that's too tragic that's why i hope it isn't. but at the end of the day the author has the final say and im just a reader ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

i read hundreds of yaoi but i guess I still have pureness in the corner of my mind. I just thought big bro doesn't like the taste or being pussy from the alcohol or just being bossy or something...but when i scroll down the comments girl i was (⊙…⊙ )
or I'm just slow to this kind of subtle things ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

they’re actually straight, it’s just we want to ship them anyways lol
so seungho attempted suicide bc of abusive dick fath- who can't accept his son's sexuality. he got beaten and was confined. he was healthy until he forced his son to take medicine that obviously took a negative side effects on him physically and mentally. and freaking left him alone in the end.
i know its his job and all but I'm glad at least mr. kim is at his side and seems genuinely worried for seungho.