
I dont get anything, what even is happening in this story anymore.

Spoiler!!
Popular theory that seems to be gaining more and more evidence is that the seme is being forced to relive this one horrible day over and over again, so he knows pretty much everything that ever happens, everything that could possibly happen, and once the uke dies, I think it all goes to shit and resets.
so the uke has lived and died many, many times, and in ever version, the seme has kept all the memories and scars from each life.
While we started chapter one with the uke, thinking this was day one, it was actually day one, version 24 or something.
so the seme is clearly going through very deep psychological trauma and he has now reached a point where he doesn't know what is going to happen, it seems - he hasn't been this far, so when he saw the uke almost die, he snapped.
All we know for sure is that the virus seemed to have started in their school lab, uke has no memory of all the other times he died, but seme does and he is unraveling (he is also very in love with uke)
this is one brilliantly written story with everything nicely taken care of except the baby simulation part which had no closure. But that aside, its really good. But their relation is so frustrating and sad. Robin is in denial and confused coz hes never had feelings of being gay and also he only had gfs in the past. Its cruel of Hangyul to hit him with such harsh words when Robin was really concerned about him. But yes, Hangyul too has had loads of pain and heartaches for so long do we should understand his outburst too. Aagh! Hope they confess and get better from now on. Really wanna see them lovey dovey soon.
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I think, from my personal experience, that this is not just Robin's first time having feelings for a guy, but his first time having romantic feelings for anyone. It didn't seem like he ever harbored romantic feelings for his exes, who noticed it and broke things off with him. He honestly seems like someone whom a girl had confessed to and he accepted it and started dating them just because that's what he was taught to be the norm. Sure, he probably was attracted to his exes in some way, whether that was aesthetic, sexual, or sensual - but I doubt it was ever romantic.
So, having said that, having a crush for the first time ever is really confusing, especially when you're in your late teens/early adulthood when that happens. Listen, I had that experience, it took me so many, many months of confusion and partial denial to realise what was happening - and I've loved reading romance since I was a literal child, you'd assume I'd be able to tell how a crush feels like. Nope, wrong, I was so damn clueless for such a long time. I can only imagine how much harder it would be for Robin, as he doesn't seem to be the type to read romance stories like I do.
Either way, I'm hoping them all the best.