
I came back... why did i come back? :')
I thought "hey it's been a year or two. Maybe it wont be so bad now that I've grown a little bit..." BOI WAS I WRONG.
I came back because I really thought I could handle it, but only 10 chapters in and it re-lit my anger towards everyone in this manhua. I loved it, but I also hated it :') Like it's one of those manhuas that are so good that you get so drawn in, but then EVERYONE IS A DICKHEAD OR GULLIABLE OR NAIVE OR WHATEVER SO IT ENDS UP STRESSING YOU OUT.
There's only a few times in my life where I get so frustrated with something that I end up crying rather than being angry... I really did start crying cus I was so frustrated with Siu BUT THEN IT'S ALSO NO HIS FAULT (which I failed to realise when I first read it at 15. I think I've grown in that I understand the situation and sympathize with him more) BUT IT STILL PISSES ME OFF.
I really don't know if I will make it...
I absolutely hate Kyujin. It was never Jimin or Doyeol's fault, all they did was fall in love. And you may argue that Kyujin wasn't in the wrong for loving Jimin either, but his indecisiveness and cowardice was just so unbearable. And even until the end, Kyujin never faced his problems and ran away from them. THAT is why they got hurt and he's aware of the fact, yet still chains and drag them down. And even when he was being confronted by Doyeol in the last chapter, he was like "well we never really loved each other" "we loved as family do for each other" and I think that's utterly messed up cus not only did he disregard Doyeol's feelings and the amount of suffering he faced because Kyujin is an utter piece of trash, but he's being indecisive cus one minute he says he didnt love him other than as a family but then he has sex with Doyeol and calls him out in his sleep. This whole time, I just kept calling him a piece of trash. I've never called someone that but now is the day.
I immediately had some issues with Kyujin when he "joked" to Jimin that he should give him a kiss. 1) I think he was already dating Doyeol by then and if not 2) HE'S A STUDENT (regardless if he was underaged. But I think he was like 18??). If that we an older man, that would be even more frowned upon by others. Am I the only person that thought that was weird??
But then what did I expect from this author lmao. I don't expect a bubbly happy ending, but I atleast didn't want such a half-baked one...