
Understanding the characters in a deeper way. I was able to understand the reasons behind their actions. I know people think ishizaki's a douche and all. But I think, that when he told the reason that he didn't want to apology, I was able to gist his personality. I understand those people have a point but realistically speaking, every person handles things differently we can't always expect for everyone(fictional characters or not) to do the same. Ishazaki's decision is seIfish as said by mishima and I know Ishizaki should apologize for the pain he caused for him, but the two came into a common ground. Mishima was able to accept the mistakes in the past and still be able to love Ishizaki, for me that is so touching and I wouldn't call it being stupid, it is being amazing. Seme was a dork but I saw his sincerity, he wasn't being a jerk for no reason. I was expecting for a great drama to happen, seme repenting horribly and all but in the end they accepted and loved each other honestly. And so, I really love the story because there is something about it that is beautiful than meet's the eye.

OK. I'm just so sad , this story was just so fucked up and sad until the very end. And people are saying author romanticized the rape parts but can someone explain to me how can you see it that way? cause from my point of view it was just rape, all I can see was uke being scarred all the time. I knew yule and kyunsoo loved each other from the very fuckig beginning. If that bastard didn't just ruin their happiness by fucking then nothing like this would have happened and kyungsoo would have stayed being a cute cinnamon roll. Anyway, we all know kyungsoo and yule being together in the end wouldn't have a happy ending. I pity Donghyuk from the very beginning and I somehow felt he wouldn't end up with Kyungsoo. I seriously don't want him to get more fucked up than he is becoming(I know his a good guy but sometimes I kinda feel scared of him). So yeah, I am feeling proud of myself for reading this. I didn't want to read this for a log time but after being in a mode to read something fucked up, I read this(I've read killing stalking so what could be worse?) And gosh... I don't know how many time I said the word FUCK from reading this haha wanted to throw my phone for so.many times but still I damn finished it. Okay time for some soft uwu to heal this scarred mind. ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭
This was actually pretty good