Youngwoon always hides his true feelings from others so it was refreshing to see him let out his anger and yell at Taegu.
YW is a master at hiding his emotions. Whenever we have Seo in’s POV, I have no clue what he’s thinking (but I do know since this started with YW POV).
Seo-in literally goes crazy because he has always failed to understand the MC’s feelings and intentions. Anyhow it hurts that YW always masks his feelings because of the abuse he went through. He just smiles and doesn’t let out his sadness, anger or desires towards others.
That’s why to others he seems simple, pure and kind but he’s really so much more complex than that.( I hope those who get close to him don’t take his kindness for granted)
They’re both so bad at expressing their feelings and communicating due to their past traumas.
YW used his smiley mask as a way to pretend everything is good so he didn’t break. And Seo in was basically trained by his mom to pretend everything is alright even when their family was a dumpster fire. (Imagine just pretending everything is cool while your house and world is crashing and burning down-insane!) However, unlike YW, pretending everything was good is probably what caused cracks to form in Seo in’s mental state.
This duality is amazing and I just love how two very different people come together.
Moreover, it seems like he has a huge fear of abandonment and revealing his deep feelings seems wayyyy too vulnerable and terrifying. His brain is in survival mode and so he does things to protect himself although his actions are very questionable and unsustainable (i.e treating MC like a disposable sex toy or letting others treat him like one). It’s also especially scary to express his love given that his brother trained his brain to think he couldn’t have anything and once he did, it would be taken away. It’s why YW disappearance broke him. It was the final nail in the coffin. I mean before they met again he was spiraling into this kind of depraved sex life he used to cope/self harm.
This trauma is why he deluded himself into thinking he hated the MC-he’d rather reject first rather than open up and be the one who’s hurt and rejected first. Especially when he’s already given his heart out once only to have it crushed.
Anyhow I don’t think it should take too long. Seo in is too weak against YW. I hope the healing together arc is a lot longer than the angsty getting together arc.
Ah it breaks my heart how they both didn’t know just how much they meant to each other. YW never moved on and Seo in mentally collapsed.
Anyhow that was my rant.
To anyone confused on whether or not Taegu is the second male lead and don’t want to read ch 21.5:
In the official Q&A, the English question was:
“Is Taegu Seo-in’s rival?”
The author’s answer was:
“He is, and he plays quite an important role in the overall storyline.”
In the Korean Q&A, the question was even more direct:
“태구 씨는 서브 공이 맞나요?”
This asks “Taegu is the sub gong right?”. Sub gong 서브 공- secondary top/second male lead. The author said yeah to this question.
Also if you reread it the author already foreshadows
It and there are context clues one might have missed because why on earth would we think he could possibly be a love interest? Like, I thought I was tripping when I was reading the scenes between them.
It’s Jiho thinking he isn’t deserving of anything good that’s he’s so self destructive . And everyone thinks he’s also a pos, which is just reinforcing his thoughts
Well the author did say that from the beginning Taegu would be a love interest. Is it still shocking? Yes. I’m just trying to feel better knowing Youngwoon is an adult with adult responsibilities, body, face, voice. And the age difference is only 9 years. Taegu looks like an ahjussi so I can’t help freaking out. Plus he knew him as a kid. But like I said, Youngwoon is an adult…
Boy literally talks to his rock and gave it a personality
Lmao, all that build up and suspense only for that to be the reason? Hilarious
Also he’s lowkey actually crazy. Not scary crazy but goofy crazy. Should get checked out honestly
The more I read the more I love Malcolm
He’s best bro
To anyone who thinks Sunwoo is dumb no he’s not. TT. He’s just normal. He was super wary and had his guard up until Sion smiled at him genuinely when they were studying together the first time. Any rational human being would be touched by a genuine smile. Plus my bro craves human connection, he didn’t need a reason beyond that. He chose to ignore Sion’s shadiness because of that vulnerable, raw, and very real moment they shared. And he wasn’t wrong. It was a real smile. Also he’s a normal person. He’s not aware that every person is trash and that as the MC he has the worst luck in that he keeps being surrounded by trash.
This is backed by the novel btw
Gosh it’s so satisfying to see how MC doesn’t take shit from others. Like when he grabbed his collar and said ML didn’t get to make dictate his relationships or now when he’s full on confronting him. I knew ML was full of bull yet, just like Sunwoo, I let me guard down. I somehow let myself feel betrayed TT.
I do think ML likes him somewhere deep down in that rotten heart of his. The amount of effort he took to get him to sleep with him was astronomical. Even if he’s the obsessive crazy type that’s still too much effort! Plus he mentioned to the bully he wanted to see MC cry but when MC cried, ML literally admitted he didn’t like that and preferred him smiling.
I hope ML suffers pain like no other when he loses Sunwoo. I hope to see him suffer in university too! (The way this is going there’s definitely going to be a uni arc)
This explains a lot. To JJK he’s normalized physical violence so much that he’s desensitized to it and probably believes he does not abuse others, because his abuse is less violent than his father’s. But he fails to see that his behavior towards others is violent and wrong. He manhandles and menaces others physically. Like sure he’s never beaten Dan to a pulp but he grabs his body in a way that makes Dan feel like JJK could physically do whatever he wants with it. To which JJK does. This feeling of physical powerlessness is the same thing JJK probably felt as a child with his father. Oftentimes the abused person/child will promise they won’t be the same as their abuser and think that they are doing much better than their abuser but they still become an abuser. They can’t see even that their violence -which is way less apparent than their abuser’s- is STILL wrong even in small doses. Like sure JJK won’t hit a child but he’ll be physically menacing towards a grown man.
Humans are very adaptable and really do normalize bad behavior to a point they believe they are good simply because their bad behavior is “better” compared to other “worse” behavior. For example, people who grew up spanked for discipline (albeit once in a while) might find that acceptable but others who have never been spanked or yelled at by their parents would be stunned to hear that their friends were spanked.
Ok so blondie is creepy for me and I don’t like him for being a creepy stalker who killed Brian, eagerly waited for his reincarnation, and then groomed Ian. But him kissing Ian made me excited. I’m so psyched for the drama coming up! Also I just want to see Blondie try really hard at getting Ian to love him. And then being heartbroken and then going crazy.
What?? I let this marinate and come back to see that it ended? It’s so short TT
does anyone know the Korean title for this manhwa? In Korean, hangeul
I wonder why she was called ugly?
Why was she deemed so unattractive by everyone? Even her dad didn’t sell her unlike her other sibling. I’m really curious. Is it the freckles? (I know they’re an undesirable feature in Korea-they’re always drawn on characters depicted as ugly lol)
My theory is her features go against the beauty standard but she is actually quite pretty. Like her features mesh well together.
Idk what do y’all think about this.