
I just read this for the first time today. I was told it was sad, but it didn’t really hit me until I finished it and had time to process what I just read.
My heart is so broken for Zhishu. He threw away all of his ambitions, dreams, security, self compassion, and self worth for someone who only showed him love when it was convenient - someone who took him for granted. Their love in the early days was youthful and sweet until time made it bitter. Zhishu kept holding onto the memory of his childhood sweetheart who now cheated on him and abused him endlessly. He went to every doctor’s appointment, every chemotherapy appointment, and every medicine run alone. He lost his will to live completely and refused treatment because of his abusive lover who he spent the last 14 years with.
As he got sicker and sicker and the leukaemia had him within an inch of his life, he fell in love with someone who gave him the undivided love and attention he never had. But time didn’t stop for them, and Zhishu passed away in his boyfriend’s arms at only 31 years old. Peacefully.
Honestly one of the saddest things I’ve read in a very long time.
Zhishu lived a short life filled with tragedy, and only in his final moments did he have peace and loving hands to hold him and see him off.
Absolutely heartbreaking.
FUCK HIM UP LOOOLL