It annoys me how weak she is. She’s not thinking about the people she’s helped with the power and what would come of them if she loses it ??? Didn’t think about maybe not accepting the blessing or explaining anything to the saintess (at least the kimchi did the reveal for her) it’s such an annoying read genuinely. She cares about people but doesn’t know her friends and closest people well enough to know that somethings off ??? Come onnnn I can’t with the short chapters it’s so frustrating it makes it addicting but not in a good way I’m like spite reading atp bc I need to know how it’s gonna enfold
when he thought about forcefully topping and couldn’t even bring himself to do it even after being put through hell by him (obviously it would be a less than ideal response but yknow) it just made me sad ╥﹏╥. Like he knew how that feels he doesn’t want to do that to another person but maybe I read too much into it…Then it kind of fell into cnc territory which ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭
This overall sucks when you think of how much the Uke (bottom) suffered bc of the seme. BUT I am re-ve-lling in the fact the seme (top) can’t even let himself feel any kind of pity or guilt bc he watches the person he loves suffer if he does. Like yes you did the shitty thing you have to channel that into only happiness for uke. You’re not allowed to feel bad or show that you do. You don’t deserve it. Suffer in silence. Perish. (●'◡'●)ノ
So what I get from this is that they’ve both raped him -the ml when he was being possessive jealous and this other dude for some suspicious reason… added a psychological tag bc what the fuck (⊙…⊙ ) not a single good option for mc here
(I think it’s intentionally kinda vague bc of the bottoms current state of mind and will probably be confirmed later on)
A little obsessed with the artist. She’s based on a real person, an artist who was raped by her mentor and made a painting that is mentioned. PLEASE Google Artemisia Gentileschi she’s awesome and her work’s iconic. There’s another manga called Arte every loosely inspired by her i believe, I only read like the first few chapters but it seems pretty good











“You’re 15 this year right” (⊙…⊙ )
Oh good lord I have no words for my younger self