
I'm at chapter 58 and idk. this whole series just feels like a torture fest for Lau. The story and the culprit is made obvious to the readers from the start, and we are taken along, having been fed with the entire context, as we see Lau get so close to the truth only to make a u-turn. I love Lau. He is a misunderstood soul, like a walnut. Everyone knows everything, but he is sent on a wild goose chase for some reason. Every time the readers are shown Lau's perspective, you can tell he is an extremely troubled soul, and his inner turmoil is explained in great detail, almost hurt to read because it felt too close to home. All I want is for Lau to be happy, but I'm scared he'll be mind-broken by the end of the series.

I agree w u but wth does “he’s a misunderstood soul like a walnut” mean is that a common saying or smth. Also I slightly disagree that it was obvious from the start but it is a bit more complex than everyone just torturing Lau. Xin has his reasons as ull see in a bit. I just want Lau and Xin to be happy vro

Oh yeah I completely agree w u ig I just misinterpreted ur comment. Xin has his own reasons and it feels like whatever he does to Lau is to ultimately help Lau, but he fails to take into account what kind of person Lau is and just how badly he’s been traumatized. So his plans to help Lau always end up backfiring by just making Lau feel used and trivialized more and more… just hurting Lau (and xin) in the long run. Also Xin sorta seems to have matured into the type of person who does things for the greater good, so it feels like he sorta weighs how badly people will be hurt and plans based off of that. My current theory is that this whole tattoo debacle was orchestrated at least in part by Xin to end up saving everyone in the long run but imo he completely disregards all of the ppl hurt for his plan to work (Chen, Lau, Mali, even himself to some extent). Poor Lau though he looks shellshocked :( I have no idea how he’s going to react to his new “freedom” but I can’t imagine it’ll be positive. I have faith that the ending will be a happy one but I really hope the author makes it so Xin at least apologizes and explains his actions to Lau. I don’t want Lau to still feel used and abused by the time the ending rolls around :(

maybe it's a cultural thing, but I really don't understand this sort of pussyfooting. He's being annoying, and everyone feels uncomfortable, yet everyone says nothing and lets him loose just to what, avoid conflict and save face?

well, yes. I mean I'm not korean, but in my country, it's kind of similar? like seniority is still a big thing, especially if it's an alumni or seniors with more than 2 year gap. I mean if it's turning into a big thing, ofc others will act, but as long as they're just being "annoying", we can't really say anything straightforward to them. just try to avoid them, or maybe try to smoothly separate them from the person that they were targeting

You got that right, it is heavily a cultural thing. When put in words in black and white on the paper in the 21st century it sounds incredibly ridiculous but that is the sad reality. This nature can be observed in countries with Confucian influence including Korea (and my country), it is a really conservative view that Korea is notorious for in keeping the hierarchy. So in this case it can easily turn into something like 'questioning and rebelling' against the hiearchy that 'everyone ' is in. So then they become rebels that also defy the society. Let's say someone calls the sunbae out and he tells other sunbaes that the dude is defying him (just because of "small things") and that equals to defying all the sunbaes in the country and then it spirals into them being someone that do not respect elders at all. And easily so, that came back and bit them in the butt because everyone would rather keep the peace being in the hierarchy bubble rather than be "rebels" with you.
This is might sound a bit extreme, but for example my mom misunderstood something important in which I tried to help her understand the situation not necessarily calling her wrong but neither accepting her opinion. She took it as though I am questioning her authority. After that she said I am impudent and rude, and if we were in our home country that wouldn't fly and she would slap me (beat me up) for my behaviour. In which of course I replied with that if she really intends to slap me for this then she cannot blame me for slapping her back as I am an adult woman not a child under her care but she is under my care and her being my mother does not give her an authority to beat me up just because she wants to and also threaten me about it.
Had I been in my home country everyone would have called me unfilial and my mom is a victim here and I am the big bad wolf for being the misbehaving spoilt child. Just because in the hierarchy stand of point, she stands higher, especially in the confucian learning. If I was in my home country I would say the same thing even though nobody would support me because I am willing to fight and stand for myself, but that is not always the case for everyone is it? Had I been younger without any income and place to live, I wouldn't either.

Np, I was mostly just yapping my grievances. We can't even call people out for their bullshit if they are our elders so it is really frustrating, my behaviour just stems from years of having enough and now trying to break the generational trauma.
By standing up for myself I can finally put a stop to the 'before sleep comebacks I should have said' and have no regrets later. I am sure everyone can achieve that much confidence with effort I myself was a big coward and pushover, but enough is enough!
nah i don't like this trope, feels so non con
okay but their dicks are so pretty, damn