currently rereading to refresh my brain- so idk what’s happened in the recent chapters but anyways:
everytime the uke and seme (you cant count on me to remember names ) have sex, istg, that shit looks so painful and dry. like ik the uke is literally in pain- but usually yaois make that look like a painful pleasure thing and ik that’s what he’s feeling basically, but it literally looks actually painful. like it looks dry asf. and not because there isn’t like juicy juice flying everywhere and whatever, but it just looks dry and painful. like everytime they have sex, all my brain can think about is; (TMI coming up) y’all know when you take a shit and it’s a painful one and everything comes out fast and whatever, then in the end you’re left with a dry asshole that stings and it feels like wrinkly and dry. that’s literally the feeling i imagine everytime they have sex :D LMFAO IM SO SORRY BUT IVE HAD THIS ON MY MIND FOR SO LONG- AND THIS MAYBE SHOULDVE STAYED IN MY BRAIN BUT UHM ILL JUST LEAVE
bruh this backstory shit did not make me feel any less hatred for eunsang nor did it make me become more understandable about the way he acts. you can definitely blame trauma/abuse/etc for a lot of the shit that’s wrong with you, but eunsang honestly is just looking for someone to blame, and people to take his anger out on. he’s just a piece of shit.











wow back at it again with the water fountain