
But not now, never anymore ...
I understand what it feels like, when you have only people to either hurt you or isolate you and amidst all this you get that one person who shows you little kindness..
You know yourself, that's just a little kindness but you never had even that much, so no matter how much that person hurts, you just wait for the lovable illusion, he set up in your mind ..
And kept hoping, he might change , he might love me or he does but he might be just confused

I have been a person who was with a really toxic man and have always wondered how the hell does he get the audacity to come back eveytime no matter how hard and how far I run away .
It's because they do love and those bastards can't stop loving, because of which they think whatever they do must be forgivable since they love.
They won't even leave you when they hate you, because for them, even hatred is love, as long they think of you, they believe you must rot in hell as well (▰˘◡˘▰)
Getting rid of a toxic guy is far worst than getting cured of cancer.
If you see a toxic guy, stay the hell away from them, don't even let them know how much you are capable of loving, they seriously take your soul away from you
You are the best