
Yknow what, man, i know that you already like waited loong enough for him - and you didn't even know if he's alive or rotting somewhere - and that, i know, fucking hurts. And then you decided to move on, that life must go on for you, even though it hurts, even though you know, deep down, that you're incomplete, because he's gone and you don't even know what to expect anymore -- you just had to move on if you want even just little bit of your normal life back. And then he came back -- he fucking came back and the bit of nolmacy you had going for a few years now feels like a joke because he's back like nothing happened, like you did not suffer for all those years that he's gone and he was talking to you like everything's fine and nothing has changed (except nothing is fine now and everything already changed) and you just had to put an end to it, like for good, because you had a new life now, a new someone by your side and that he's the most important person in your life right now, and that person standing in front of you? He's already part of the past -- you loved him, yes, but you cannot love him anymore.
And i respect that, man. I really do. It's brutal, for me, but i really do understand it. However, you already pushed him away. You already made your point, and he's also, in a way, trying to respect your decision by understanding where you're coming from, and he now understands that's he's being selfish by trying to act like nothing happened and that he was not there these last few years, and that his dissapearance (even though he did not want any of that to happen) did not hurt you -- he understands it all now. He really do understand it all now.
So, please. Make up your mind. Stand by your decision. It may hurt now, seeing him moving on with his life without you. (Like, it's ironic you feel that way because that's exactly what you made him feel). But please remember, you already moved on too, right? Or at least that's what you tell yourself.
So just, please, leave him alone. Let yourself heal.
LET HIM HEAL.
WHAT THE EFFIN FCKKKK HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHSHSHAHAHAHAHAHSHSHSHAHAHHSSHHS (≧∀≦) I DIEEEEDDD