 
														Okay real question now : why would he forces himself to suck him when he can literally beat him up instead? Cause it kinda looks like it’s his first time with a man (I think he’s originally straight or at least it looks like it), and he’s even thinking about his (future ex) girlfriend while looking kinda grossed out. Even if he’s not comfortable about the beating thing, he could also have asked Pyeonghwa to suck him instead ? And I’m pretty sure he would happily obliged like in chapter 10. I mean, nobody is forcing him to suck a guy’s dick, not even Pyeonghwa himself. The dude didn’t even consider it (he was like so down for the beating at first). So why would he goes as far as sucking a guy’s dick ? Even when no one asked him to and he literally has the choice to beat him up instead (or even, just receiving a head while closing his eyes). There’s no way to understand what’s happening in his head. But well, I won’t complain about them FINALLY having sex. I’m just a bit confused.
 
																				I think it's implied he had sex with men before (though also coercive). He can't beat him up, because he's not mafia, he's a politician. If he got arrested for beating him up, to force him to give up his property, the media would have a field day with him and his boss. You can't exactly call the cops on a guy for giving you a blowjob after asking for a blowjob. Also he's currently "pleasing" Pyeonghwa, so asking him for a blowjob would've been pointless. He could've pleased Pyeonghwa by hitting him, but again, that could lead to legal action, which he must desperately avoid.
 
																				
                                                I think he doesn't want to hit the ml cause he is more gross out by the fact that the ml turns on by being hit and violence is not his thing.
He needs to please the ml but even though he knows the ml is a M, he doesn't really understand the tendency to come up with hitting the throat can make the ml feels good. And he probably doesn't want blow some steam off by someone he doesn't even like because it may switch some weird button in him. 
To him, sucking or being sucked, it feels forced both ways so he choose to suck instead. He is tired and kinda submissive in this chapter is one of the reason. His mind went: "I will just do whatever he wants and be done with it. Just go with the flow but not cross my limits too much."                                            
 
														Bruh… 30 chapters of slow burn and teasing for what ? What was all the buildup for ? To rage bait us ? I feel like a fool. Not only we didn’t get to have our smaller top rep cause the dude grew up and became so damn tall (even though one of the reasons why I was so hooked at first was because I knew the top was supposed to be the small one), but we didn’t even get to actually see them fuck at all. Even when they were together and finally BOTH in love And the thing is, not only I accepted how tall the top became (even though I really preferred how he was in the first chapters) but I even accepted that they wouldn’t fuck at all (or at least not explicitly). But now, you’re telling me that we have a whole ass chapter with a very explicit sex scene of one of the MCs and some random weirdo guy who waited for him to be legal and drunk as fuck ?? . What’s the author’s problem ? I really feel like I was baited twice . It’s not even the fact that he slept with someone else tbh. Like, they haven’t seen each other for 2 years, and he’s self destructive, he had been making a lot of bad decisions since the beginning of the story cause he has a LOT of issues, so yeah, I’m not really surprised and I can somehow understand his behaviors, but why did it have to be explicit ? Why dedicating a whole chapter to this sexual scene ? Why couldn’t it have been implied instead?? It’s the fact that we had been invested in the 2 main characters relationship for 30 chapters, with a few chapters where the author teased us about them having sex without actually doing it, and now the FIRST sex scene is THAT ??? As a reader I feel betrayed. Like I was made fun of.

 
		















I have always been team TJ but now I feel like they’d be doomed together cause TJ will never be satisfied with a simple life, Ian will probably never be enough for him, my man is too greedy smh