
Wait idgi...does he like sooin or does he hate him but still wants him? Or idk I'm kinda confused

From my understanding, it seems that Sungha used to like Sooin more than a friend. because of Sungha’s mom point of view toward gay people (aka viewing them as disgusting), he probably had a hard time accepting it. It’s only become worse when she probably and most likely kill herself because she can’t accept her son might be gay, leading him to feel it is his fault that his mom died and hate gay people. What he had left for Sooin in the present is probably a mix of love, hate and a pinch of possessiveness.
Of course I could be wrong about this but this is what I get from reading his past
It's not always sunshine and butterflies I guess :( man this chapter BROKE me