I'm into complex to flat out retard plots. Hardcore to insupportably romantic couples, mainly yaoi. I like shoujo, action and shounen too. I can even read manga about magical girls saving the world with all the fluffy, girly, lollipops thingy flying about. I also read smut and josei, but I'm more of that guy who just scroll down, hoping to find the plot in what is esentially fluffy porn with glowing vaginas. So pretty much anything goes for me beside threesome or love triangles. So no harem.
Although some love triangles are OK I try to avoid them. Cuz something about that drama is just tiring. And the harem girls are so cliche, like every harem just uses the some trope without really trying to work on deepening the relationship dynamic between the characters. It's just shallow. Than there is the fact that there are girls constantly hanging around, getting jealous and whatever instead of just keeping them in some secluded part of the palace where you can't see the bloodshed. A small part of me, which still tries to place the plot in reality shivers thinking of a guy surrounded by as many as 12 lovers, half of whom are either yandere or that one underage girl wielding swords or throwing around magical molotovs.
Ah. And returning back to yaoi. I can't stand these disgusting, degrading feminine uke protagonists screaming loli and shits rainbows in a valley of everything that's pink and nice.
Sure, I read manga with these kind of characters (while facepalming myself and screaming that the seme is the only normal man in the manga universe. I mean, the uke doesn't even need to be beefy, hairy guy. He can be a screwy pretty band boy with long lashes for
all I care. BUT at last make him human and not some imp with a flowery/sparkling eyebeam shotting from his eyes. That's terrifying. Just terrifying. Seriously. While I'm at this. I'm a hypocrite, totally aware of that. Because I do read these manga anyway. Because the PLOT is GOOD. YAOI is GOOD...Ah. my heartaches.)
Oh. And I write REALLY long reviews when stressed.
Why did he make that sad/ disappointed expression at the end of the chapter???
I haven’t seen any raws or anything but there are a lot of reasons he could react that way. I personally interpreted his expression as one of more conflicted feelings rather than one singular emotion.
Taegun essentially sees himself as damaged goods after his previous relationship while Eunsung still sees him as the same whole person. His reaction could be him reacting to that dissonance - discomfort at the idea that Eunsung loves him and doesn’t see him as broken while his “truth” is the opposite.
Eunsung wants to be a mark who cannot be forgotten but the only person we know that can fill that description for Taegun is the man who abused him. As we all know Taegun is really afraid of letting someone in again when they could hurt him, that face could be due to that fear of letting Eunsung be that close. Will he be another scar he has to carry in the future?
Finally, after seeing Eunsung’s suicide in Nightmare he now knows exactly why he is such a memorable figure in Eunsung’s mind. The idea that he is Eunsung’s saviour despite not actually doing anything significant in his own mind - being deeply connected to one of the worst periods in Eunsung’s life - he is not just a person Eunsung loves but a reminder that brings him pain. There’s a lot of conflicting emotions here for Taegun. He knows how it feels to want to die and he probably feels deep empathy for Eunsung’s pain now he is aware of it. He probably feels unworthy of any praise let alone love in this situation which muddies his feelings in that moment.
There are a lot of other interpretations you can make from this scene and I don’t think any one will be 100% correct, all of my ideas could be right or wrong. I personally really like how ambiguous this moment is from Taegun’s point of view. He is really well written as a character with deep trauma learning to trust again. I hope the author takes him down a route of self love and acceptance in the future.
Oh, and also, the date kind of went to shit just now. He tried to live a childhood dream and in the end he felt nothing; the rides weren’t fun and Eunsung just ended up feeling ill. It’s kind of a microcosm of Taegun’s whole issue rn. He talks about his sad past as an orphan, he laments in his mind about his abusive ex and how he wished he could’ve experienced life before becoming an esper. Taegun who feels like he has only made mistakes just cannot understand why this person who appears to have his shit together likes him when he himself is a mess in his own head and in his personal life. Eunsung, on the other hand, found the silver lining and took them to the ferris wheel. He is with Taegun through the good and the bad, no judgement and no pity. If there isn’t good he’ll find some. It’s a nice way to interpret the scene despite the somewhat bitter ending to the chapter.
your comment is so well written, and it truly was insightful. thank you so much for sharing all your different interpretations in one, they all make so much sense! you're da best, have a great rest of your day friend~
Thank you! I like Taegun a lot, lol. Have a good day as well <3