Yall need to talk to the author who wrote can’t think straight. Seriously. Before I read that, I was a firm hater of this whole fuck up and make up trope but that man GROVELLED and didn’t expect any love or appreciation for it. He did things to help the bottom with no expectations of anything back. Just did something nice and left. Showed consistency and affection without overstepping boundaries. He stepped up. This is from the worst man child possible who was homophobic, called the bottom a whore, told the bottom the only thing he’s good for is his ass, etc. and now he fights on behalf of the bottom, helped him with his family issues, supports him and is always there to be a resting spot for the bottom after a stressful day at work. He’s genuinely one of the most pleasant ML I’ve had the honour of seeing and I’m a veteran fujoshi. If that man can come back from that, this man can come back from this if he plays it right but AUTHORS YOU NEED TO WRITE YOUR CHARACTERS WITH SOME REMORSE AND SOME RESPECT FIRST!
I don’t particularly care if people upload other languages but please label them if they aren’t English. It helps everyone know what language you’re translating to and helps those of us who don’t know that language, avoid that one chapter.
i think its an automatic upload
As someone who grew up in an abusive household, I also had to learn the hard way what was and was not acceptable violence and what is and is not acceptable outputs of rage. Anger management helped me but what seriously helped me was learning that my rage stemmed from fear so instead of treating it as “ah I’m pissed tf off!”, I now treat it as “how can I make myself feel safer?”. For him, he feels like he’s back there with his mother being abused and to save his mother, he would kill and I feel him on that. I hate my own mothers guts for what she did to me but I would absolutely kill anyone who hurts my baby sister in a fit of rage because the abuse I went through would overlap with the pain she feels and it would just amplify it out of control. That’s why it’s so important to work on yourself and figure out what your emotions are telling you. Now, I can handle my sister crying (18 year age gap) and I can sort out my own emotions before flying off the handle to protect her. I can think logically in that split moment before I make a big mistake. I’m saying all of this to show people that he’s not a violent person and he’s not an abusive person either. He’s extremely traumatised and a victim of abuse and much like a wounded animal, he’s become aggressive out of fear. I hope he can get better with therapy or the boxing or whatever helps him feel more safe and more in control!
Felt the deep need to tell you that I am so proud of you! Working on trauma amd our responses to it is so hard and you are a great person for doing so! <3
Awh thank you so much! I’m proud of you too for whatever hardships you’ve faced and overcome but also for your kindness and bravery to speak up <3 the world needs more people like you!
I actually really loved both stories! Usually I really love one and I’m meh on the other but wow! I like this author! If anyone has any suggestions similar to this, please share them!
It’s still inaccurate to safe and I’d say “humane” breath play but I am glad to see Courtney acknowledge how scary it is being a dom and being in the drivers seat and how easy it is to not only get caught up but end up enjoying it so much you get morbid curiosity out of it. I’m personally a switch but the few times I’ve done a wayyyyyyyyyyyy softer version of breath play on my ex (at his request since we both enjoy it on yourself and doing it to each other), I have experienced the curiosity she’s facing and I know my ex has as well because it does make you jolt back to reality and reflect and it messes you up for a while until you can accept that you will have intense emotions and intrusive thoughts while you play so close to life and death or so intimately with the human bodies upper limits. This is why it’s so important for both sub and dom or maso and sado to have individual safewords to back out at any time. On occasions, my ex has had to safeword while being a dom because he ended up having an intrusive thought and it scared him that he was “capable” of that kind of thought. I do hope they play with proper safety measures going forward but considering this is a newb sado-dom and a maso-sub with a death wish and a LOT of knowledge that he’s withholding from his dom, I don’t have high hopes. It’s a good enough read if you don’t think at all during the BDSM aspects since it’s only half accurate and very unsafe.
If you’re riding and it’s hard to keep your hands in front of you and move, put your hands behind you. It’s soooo much easier to move since it’s mostly your hips moving forward than your entire lower body moving up. It puts less strain on your hips and legs and definitely on your arms. You can also grind better in that position which feels awesome!
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Lmaooo I saw a poor soul struggling and had to intervene! Also you can keep your hands basically underneath you rather than in front and that helps! Happy riding~
Putting a pillow under your partners' hips also helps
I agree! Putting your hands behind you when you ride gives you that lift and support you need so that your legs won't shake after doing the ooga booga. My husband praised my riding skills once i started doing that, he said one of the best things about it is that he likes it because of the view.
That’s good advice for all positions tho. Pillows are your best friend in sex and yoga lol
I get it. The relationship is so fragile to begin with that you don’t want to put any pressure on the other person for fear that will be the straw that broke the camels back. It all feels so fake. Every gesture, every kiss, every I love you feels like they’re saying it to keep you rather than because they actually want to be with you romantically. It’s painful to be in a relationship like theirs. And what ML isn’t understanding is that MC isn’t doing this to be spiteful or out of jealousy or anything like that, he’s doing this because he feels like he’s on a tightrope and one wrong move is detrimental to his whole livelihood. The correct way to deal with this is to take it slow and from the beginning again. No sex, no kisses, no cuddles. You go on dates, you learn more about each other and pretend you knew nothing about them to begin with (that’s important to start over). Only then can you feel the relationship building and then intimacy can happen and words of affirmation can go on. It’s such a slow process though because the one who feels like they’re on a tightrope will feel like this is all some sort of test and won’t trust it for a really really long time so you have to be patient and be in it for the long haul. You’ve proved to them for the longest time that they aren’t date worthy and that you are an unreliable romantic partner and they’ve witnessed it so you’re going to have to prove each and every day that you can be trust worthy and reliable and also that they are worthy of love because you caused that insecurity. They wouldn’t be insecure with anyone other than you so it’s up to you to mend the cracks you caused. My ex didn’t do that the first time and we ended up breaking up after a very heated argument about why I don’t trust him. He’s trying again from the beginning but I still can’t see him as trustworthy yet since it’s only been a few weeks but it is helping me to overcome some part of the insecurity that I’m not good enough to date by seeing his efforts and patience in order to be with me. I hope ML can be patient and slowly rebuild trust and an actual bond rather than a trauma bond with MC and I hope MC can slowly learn that he is worthy of love and that ML does love him so he can show his love too.
He’s a crown prince of what I assume is a rather conservative state in which women aren’t given equal rights, responsibilities and duties as men. Not only is he completely ignoring and disregarding every single disrespectful and treasonous thing she says and does towards him and the imperial family, he also listens to her and tries to understand her when she talks about foreign concepts that would absolutely break the social norms in their world. And he did all of this without even knowing the full story and now that he knows most of it, he still doesn’t care. He just wants her and he wants her to be happy. That’s better than green flag, he’s the who Amazon rainforest! He is so forgiving and understanding but firm when it comes to her safety and yet he still tries to cheer her up and lighten the mood even when he’s mad at her (like when she poisoned herself). Genuinely gold standard. This is what men should be and anything less shouldn’t be tolerated.
Kazuma… I was you when I was younger and then I started to think “instead of treating them like young humans, treat them like drunk aliens who don’t know human language!” And now I somewhat understand kids. I still for the most part don’t like them because they’re loud and constantly getting themselves in dangerous situations so I have a near constant headache around them but I don’t hate them. They’re very cute! I just hope I can have my tubes tied so I never have any haha thanks author for showing that it’s okay to not like children and still want the best for them! People don’t understand that you can have both be true so this was nice to see!
You can totally love someone now and loathe who they used to be at the same time. That’s possible. The opposite can be true too. You can adore who someone once was and hold love for that past version while hating the current version of that person. You don’t have to like someone’s past in order to plan a future with them. As long as it’s something you can personally live with and ignore for the most part, I don’t see why it’s an issue. If you love him, you love him. Nothing complicated about it.