I'm hoping for two endings. One where hen ends up with Ivan and one where hen gets to be with Alek. I mean no matter how hard I try to scale who the better one for our hen between this two handsome men, I just can't think of it. It's still sad no matter who gets to end up with him cause obviously it would mean the other one will be rejected and my weak heart just can't accept it. So no matter what the ending is, if it ain't a double ending I'm just gonna create an alternative ending in my head.
I'm still crying right now. It's like all their sufferings, sadness and a bunch of hurtful emotions were worth it because they finally get together. I love how it's been a roller coster ride cause the emotions keep changing and it frustrate me and makes me all goofy at the same time. This manhua made me cry a river I'm not even lying. Yes! I cried a river! I was hesitant to read this at first cause I'm such a soft person I probably cannot take all the pain but I'm glad I read this! If you guys are hesitating to read this well don't be! It's really worth the tears you guys.










I hate it that I love the seme but I also hate him. I don't know why the sex part with the chairman and mookyul upsets me a little, I mean he was freaking 17 that time! That would've been considered rape even if they both consented to it( I don't know anymore, maybe my mind will change later). I hate myself that it's a lot complicated but is a great story at the same time but I still feel there's something wrong about it. I honestly love the mc although he is a little annoying sometimes. There must be something wrong with me because my slightly unsatisfied self wasn't expecting that the relationships within the characters were all twisted but at the same time genuine.
You can love a story that has something wrong with it.
A well written story doesn't necessarily mean that it is a nice one. The relationship between the chairman and mookyul is twisted and both the main characters have issues that they need to overcome; it's violentand and ugly, full of row emotions that the characters do not know how to handle. It's not comforting nor comfortable to read, but it is hopeful in the end an ultimately, very human; that'swhy it's good