I skipped some parts because I'm weak to toxic relationship stories. I just can't bring myself to read all of it but the funny thing is I can read MADK over and over again. It's still a masterpiece and the ending is fantastic. It's twisted. it's what makes their relationship all about. Both of them are incapable of normal relationship at this point in their life anyway since they're both attached to each other regardless of what the other may do in the future. I'll try to read the whole thing sometime in the future maybe ╮(╯_╰)╭
I think Kan was the person that kept Yumi from thinking of Maya. That's how their relationship went on. Not because of mutual love. Yumi may like Kan but not as much as how he likes Maya. Kan may low-key knew all of this also. He became emotionally unstable due to his work and knowing the truth about his relationship makes it worst. He needed help but his mental state wasn't really taken into consideration. He was just a violent person although we all know he just went like that because how toxic his work is. If only love could make our mental state stable while working in a toxic environment. How great would that be!! Yumi and Kan used each other just different approach that's why it's a toxic relationship. Violence is not the only thing that makes the relationship toxic sometimes when the other person doesn't really want to be with you as well. If Kan never got that toxic job and Yumi and Maya meets again. Yumi would only keep the relationship going because of guilt or leave Kan for Maya.











I kinda like the 1st chapter and the one about double suicide. The uke in the 1st chapter I don't know if he really hates the seme but I think their fated because he noticed the seme right away even if the seme is hiding himself being an alpha. He never refuses his advancement and still can make a casual talk so it really gives me this delusion that he just denies how he likes the seme. I feel awful and conflicted about this ರ╭╮ರ